dizzyupthegirl
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Post by dizzyupthegirl on Mar 21, 2002 7:21:39 GMT -5
S: Dunno what else to say but that im alrite. No actually that wud have been a lie if i say that im alrite. The truth is im not. Im still recovering.. when u said the thing that have hold my heart together, u took that thing. I know we luv each otehr just as friend... and u said so urself. But u dont luv me nemore. And im wondering y's taht? I dont want to ask the question cuz u mite think that i actually cared. Which is true. I luv u wit all my heart.. but when u said that u dont luv me nemore... my heart just break. I'm glad u are having a great time wit ur friends back home. but im afraid that ur not really my true friend. I just want u to care or luv me even as a friend only. Argh... y dont u luv me nemore?!
M: im so glad u r here... im so glad ihave a friend like u. U r the best.. and i luv u to death..!
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Post by Michaelangelo on Mar 22, 2002 18:26:34 GMT -5
S- I'm so sick of your attitude. And you may think I'm the only one, that I'm being paranoid and jealous, but I'm not. Everyone thinks you're a total bitch. You just haven't realized it yet. I'm sick of you trying to weasel your way in with R. Why is it that you have this need to become best friends with my good friends? You think I didn't notice your notes on her OD? "Ohh R you're the BEST! I LOVE YOU!" She and I laughed over those. But of course, you're oblivious as usual. She only knew you through E, and because I complained about what a snotty bitch you are to her. You know, we were really tight, and I'd love to be best friends again, but you have got to lose your bitchy attitude. I miss you, but at the same time I pity you. Did you even realize how many people were laughing at you behind your back? Your best friends are C, P, S...such losers. Petty as it sounds, it's true. You lost a great friend in me, S, and if you want me back I'm always more than willing. But I'm not gonna sit around and let you treat me like shit anymore. Elbow in front of me to talk to R one more time and I might just rip your hair out. *sigh* It feels so nice to say all these things I've had inside me for so long! Thanks for making this thread, Tiger! Love, ~The Kitten~
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Mar 24, 2002 23:27:25 GMT -5
M-Don't you realize you're choices affect me too? Don't you realize that hurting your body hurts me in the deepest way? It hurts my heart. I dont know whether to be mad...or sad... or scared...or disapointed...or what. Honestly I think I'm all rolled into one. I dont know how to feel besides hurt. How do I know you wont make the same bad choices later on? How do know that you're telling the truth? How do I know whether when we're older if you'll "accidently slip" again. Ugh I guess what hurts me most is that you yourself weren't even going to tell me, you were going to have krispy do it for you. Then after I tell you I'm not mad you go and said "well i've been doing it the whole weekend" WHAT THE HECK! I'm away and dont talk to you for a few days and all the sudden you've fallen apart. What am I going to do if I have to go away for a week or even two. How will I know you're ok? I worry about you, I'm affraid I'll loose you. I really dont want to...but I dont really know what to think now. It seems like you think that what you do doesnt hurt me. It does hurt me...because I love you. I know this probably sounds funny but every time I get close to someone they slip right through my fingers. When you told me today...the first thing I thought was I lost you. I know in a physical aspect I havent...but emotionally right now I have. And it hurts. It breaks me into two...I dont even know what to think anymore...ugh I'm so frustraited. And to say "I'll try not to anymore" You'll try...but will you succeed? How do I know? How do I know you just wont tell me about it? I guess I'm done now...
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dizzyupthegirl
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Post by dizzyupthegirl on Mar 26, 2002 9:10:42 GMT -5
M: What the hell is wrong wit u?!
S: I hate u... i dont want nething to do wit u. You played wit my heart... u played games wit my mind.. you hurt my feelings... god... i just hate u so much. I dont even want to talk to you... and dont give me all of those bs. Saying how u luv me..... give me a break. I've had it wit u. I luv u so much.. and then u played wit my heart.... god.... how i hate u now.
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Post by LaliciaBebe on Mar 27, 2002 21:43:05 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]*M*[/glow] It's time for me to let you go now. It's time for me to give up my fantasy about you. It's time. All you do is hurt me. Nothing has changed about you, you are still the same fantastic guy, but I, I am hurt by you. Now that you have a girlfriend. I'm so jealous. It's not healthy. I'm so crazy about you. It's can't be healthy. It's time for me to let all this go. I regret not telling you how I feel when I had the chance, when it may have made a difference, but I can't change that. And now that you are with Amy, I definetly can't do anything. She's my friend. I don't want to be angry anymore. I don't want you to hurt me anymore. I want to be friends with you and have everything be normal. I want us to be pals. I can't hold on to this false hope anymore. I still love you though.
A: I'm sorry that I get so mad at you. It isn't your fault. I honestly think that you are a very cool girl. Maybe not the best girl for him but... when you are together I can feel something. I can see that he's happy. I'm happy about that. And I know that you won't break his heart and I know that you won't treat him badly. I know that. Take good care of him, okay?
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Post by Semi-Charmed.Life on Apr 2, 2002 0:42:16 GMT -5
S: Just stop. You're so full of yourself and the worst thing is that you don't even realize it! Everything has to be about you. If you feel bad you try to make everyone around you feel so miserable. Get over yourself. You're not that great. K: Thank you for everything. Just as we were getting to know each other, you pack up and leave. I'll probably never see you again . Take care. You're the best!
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Post by -*- Little Miss Strawberry -*- on Apr 2, 2002 4:17:53 GMT -5
<<<L - You're a nice guy, you really are. I just don't know what to do about you. I fancy SL - or do I? I'm just an insecure teenage girl and you're nice, but I'm just going to end up mucking you around. But there's something of me that's holding onto you because I want the experience, I want to learn. Perhaps thats how you feel about me. I thank you so much for the boost you've made to my confidence, it's done wonders. I thank you so much for the nice guy you are. I want to have something spiritual with you. I want you to be a man after God's heart, like I am a woman after God's heart. I want to pray with you. I want to be able to talk to you about where we're going together. We've been three weeks together and I'm already stressing. We need to talk. Is what we're doing right before God? Do you care anyway? Where are you spiritually? >>>
*sighs*. [glow=red,2,300]*L*[/glow] - you're a nice guy, but we broke up on Friday. I felt relieved, I wrote a page about how happy I was, how it made me feel closer to God, happier within myself. We did break up for a reason. I am more sorted, I have learnt from this relationship. I have learnt about you. I have respect for you. But it's a limited respect. It's sad the way you feel the need to impress others. It's sad the way you make others laugh so much that when you're serious they don't believe you. You are funny. I can't get my head round why you told 10 people you didn't fancy me anymore. Then that got passed around. Why? You say you didn't want to dump me, but... you still told people you didn't like me? *sighs*. I can't get my head round you, you're like R - you'd go well together! Oh well. At least I have the knowledge of knowing you. I've pulled you, I've been closer to you and probably understand you more than most people at church. That will probably mean more to you than you'll realise at present. Sighs.
[glow=red,2,300]To all my friends at school[/glow] - You're all gems. Thank you God for their assistance and their friendship. You're all worth more than anything and I'm glad I'm realising that. What I like is that you're all so "out" of my other situations that I don't have to hide anything. You guys don't frustrate me. My church friends do, mostly. Thanks.
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Post by alicia.the.starlet on Apr 2, 2002 16:56:00 GMT -5
BM: It's taken me a while but I think I'm finally going to be okay. It's almost like I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I felt so low and so depressed for so long over you, and now I feel liberated. You don't define me. My feelings for you are not who I am. You aren't my soul. You don't decide how I feel. You and CA hurt me so bad by getting together, right in front of my face. Right there, and it hurt me so bad. I thought I would die. But I'm okay, I came out on top. And I can still be friends with both of you. I can still talk to you and CA and be fine. I'm not going to let you hurt me anymore. Or so I tell myself. But I can't stop that little pain that comes whenever I think of you kissing her and not me. I can't stop that feeling of jealousy and that feeling of pure pain. But I can work through it, and I will. I can deal with it, and I will. You will not break me. I can keep on going. And I will still love you, no matter what.
MG: Where would I be without you. You are an angel. My little breath of fresh air, reminding me that it's okay to cry when I feel low but that I have to pick myself back up and go on with life. Thank you.
Mom: You have been so wonderful. Teaching me to be compassionate and loving and instead of telling me how to live, you show me. I'm sorry that I mess up and I'm sorry that I am not perfect and thank you for not expecting me to be. I try my best to live life the way you do. Loving everyone, finding the silver lining and working through pain and hard times instead of giving in to them. I love you.
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Post by Soleluna on Apr 3, 2002 9:26:08 GMT -5
M. sei una perona debole, come tutte. e io lo so. forse è questo che ti fa paura. Non voglio più la tua amicizia, solo un rapporto umano.... sapere come stai. Ti voglio cmq bene.
E.P. ho paura. mi piaci e allo stesso tempo ho paura che tu lo sappia... di non piacerti...che tu non mi piaccia...paura i una storia. ma la voglio... la voglio tantissimo. Voglio conoscerti e baciarti... E poi chi era quella mora fuori con te ieri? sono gelosa.
Bea: non so perchè, ma se penso a te penso al marcio. A mia nonna. Al segno dell'ariete, che mi ricorda marcio. sei vicida e traditrice. guarda come ti diverti con la meg adesso che io non ci sono. Lol Sei stronza
A me stessa: sto bene così. Si può essere forti e deboli al tempo stesso?
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Post by alicia.the.starlet on Apr 3, 2002 15:14:26 GMT -5
B: I woke up this morning and I thought of you. I layed there a while and tried to get you out of my head, but you wouldn't go away. I yelled at you in my head. I told you to leave me alone and to stop hurting me. And then Cammie came and she held your hand. You both just stood there smiling. You looked so happy. Then I thought of you and me. I tried to keep the thought from coming but I couldn't. The thought of us, together. I was happy, for a split second. And then that horrible pain came and I felt sick. I know that you do not love me. I know that I am nothing more to you than a friend, if that even. I wish you could feel for me what I feel for you. I sat there and studied your face in my mind. I want you to leave me alone. How can I get over you if you won't leave my brain, or my heart. I want to be happy. I don't want you to ruin how I feel. I don't want you to hurt me the way you have been. I want to be okay. I don't want to feel like I need you to be around. I want to be okay without you. I am. I can live and be fine, but I feel like something is missing. Maybe it's you. Maybe it's just love.
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Post by LaliciaBebe on Apr 7, 2002 14:45:12 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]*M*[/glow] I'm not finished with you yet, but I'm done crying over you. I'm done wishing and hoping for something that cannot be. We are friends. That's good enough for me. In about an hour I'll probably be eating my words, wondering how I could have ever felt like this, but for now, for this moment, I don't want to be your girlfriend. And I'm okay. J: If you weren't such a jerk, I might actually be able to like you. But your an ass. Hopefully I'll be proven wrong, but I don't know. Your always mocking people and that bothers me. I don't like it because what if your making fun of me to. I don't know, I'll have to see if I like this. I don't know how I feel, but stop making fun of *M* for sure, okay? M: sorry that I butted in last night. I feel bad. I know that you didn't want me there. I just had to come. I'm sorry. Please don't be angry. I couldn't tell if you were or not. AC: Grrrrrrrrrrr.
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Post by lilblondie1892 on Apr 7, 2002 19:29:42 GMT -5
j- I LOVE YOU! now i know you hate me and all of my friends think im crazy for likeing you after what u have done but i dont care i love u so much! and i wanna know why do u hate me? because we were great friends and i liked you so much, then its like one say u like me the next u dont?! you are the best guy i have ever met and i have never liked anyone as much as i have liked you. i have cried many tiems over you, we have only known each other for a year and a half and i know we hated each other a lot more then we have liked each other over this time but i still love you. i have liked you since the day i met you. and i know i said i wish we had never been friends well it was a lie i was just mad that day. and when we are friends thats the best time in the world for me. it made me really sad when u liked my friend sarah. and also when u told me that u didnt like me. but i have never been more sad then when me and u are in fights. and i know u think that im annoying well i just want u to notice me and like me! cuz u know how great it is when we both are friends, just seeing ur face makes me happy. and the best thing that i ever herd in my life was "lauren ur pretty and not ugly like i said b4 and ur not fat at all, and im sorry about everything i said and did" and you said that 2 me joe! that was the best thing i have ever herd in my entire life, i would do anything for u! i really mean this. and i want you to know how much i love u, i just dont know how to say it
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Post by alicia.the.starlet on Apr 7, 2002 22:57:21 GMT -5
B: I wish that I could just sit down and tell you everything. It's so hard to keep it in for so long. I've tried to keep this from disrupting my life, but I can't do anything when I hurt. I'm a happy person and I love life, I am a firm believer that love should never make a person upset... but then I saw you with Cammie and I couldn't breath. It's been that way for a month now, you and Cammie, happy, me pretending to be happy and honestly trying to be happy... but not being very successful. For the most part I am okay. It's not as if I fall down on the floor crying because I hurt so bad, it's just that little things remind me of you and then I feel a dull ache, then a sharp pain. And all because I love you. God, Bradley, I want you to be happy. I really do. I want to get over you so that we can just be friends... but how can I.
C: I'm sorry for all the bad things that I have said about you. I really am. It's just that you hurt me so badly that I didn't know how else to handle it, I still don't. It's hard for me to smile when I see you with the one I love. But at least I know he's being taken care of. Please don't hurt him. He deserves true love. Treat him the like the great guy that he is. So far it looks like your not very good to him. But I'll give you a second chance. No, nevermind. I don't want you with him. You're an awesome girl and a great friend. But I don't want you near him.
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Apr 8, 2002 3:45:19 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]D:[/glow] I've missed you sooo much this past week! You have no idea how much I've realized that I love you when I can't be around you. I think about you all the time, and everytime I think about going back to school on Tuesday, I start smiling and get this feeling in my stomach like It's something I can't wait for. If you only knew how much I loved you...I'm going to tell you at the end of the year, so I won't have to face you at school or anything, but a part of me wonders what would happen if I told you right now. You probably wouldn't go out with me, because I'm pretty sure you don't like me. You don't flirt with me as much as other girls...most of the time.
[glow=red,2,300]M:[/glow] You're unbearable sometimes, but other times, I wonder what I would do without you. You know I love you, it's just like I'm afraid to say it or something...whenever I want to, I try and say it, but I just can't. I think I got out of the habit of it, and now I can't say it. Maybe it's also the fact that I'm worried other kids will think I'm "uncool" if my mother knows that I love her, but still...I just want you to know I love you.
[glow=red,2,300]R:[/glow] Ugh, you are SO annoying! Now you've started to like OLDIES? That is MY music, and now I can't tell you I like it, just because you'll think I'm copying you. Do you have any idea how shallow you are? Is it really that hard for you to comprehend that we have the SAME INTERESTS? You're so full of youself you don't even bother to know what I like, so when you start to like it, suddenly I can't anymore. Oh yeah, and remember how you told me Freddie Mercury was gay? I TOLD YOU THAT!!! You're not being new or original when you cover oldies. I've already done it in the 3rd grade. You really are just an annoying, shallow, full of yourself freak, and I don't even know why I hang out with you anymore.
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Post by GabiGirl23 on Apr 9, 2002 0:46:27 GMT -5
M ~ I can't believe you. I honestly can't. I've dealt with a lot of shitty people, Lord knows I have, but you have got to be the worst. I can't believe you had the nerve to call the cops, then tell me I'm only trying to copy you, and that I'm just doing it for attention and that I'm in denial and need to wake up and see the truth? First of all, if you've turned self harm into a competition you've got a sicker mind than I thought. You know I was cutting myself months before you were. But IT SHOULDN'T matter. I would never want to copy anything you do. I would never harm myself for attention. You know nothing about me or my life, and how dare you come in, make the huge mistake you did, and then tell me why I do something I do to MYSELF. Bullshit. Maybe you're trying to shift your guilt to me - because you know you only called the cops because of S. You thought he'd be impressed with your "caring". Only your plan kinda backfired. You were jealous with me for spending time with him. Well, you can be happy. I'm finally doing myself a favor and I'm done with anything having to do with him. I hope you're happy that not only have you ruined my life but you continue to destroy my self worth. Go to hell.
A ~ I don't even know what to say that can express the kind of pain I feel. To be told, after everything I've been through, that I'm a selfish, weak, cowardly person who needs to grow up and realize I don't have problems and get over myself, all because I cut myself...that hurt more than you'll ever know. Do you think I like being depressed? Do you think I have a choice? Do you think I enjoy being so hopeless and upset all the time that hurting myself is the only way out? I don't. But I can't help it. I also can't help what kind of person you are and I've accepted that. But please don't hurt me anymore like that. I really can't handle it.
L ~ You've helped me more than you will ever know. You have saved my life so many times, and just knowing someone like you is there for me means the world. I don't know where I'd be without our 4 hour phone talks about stupid people, lame guys who break your heart, or S's ego floating around the school (haha!) You're the one I know I can always go to, and I love you so much. I truly believe you are an angel from the Lord in disguiseI will never be able to repay you for the help you've given me, but I swear I will keep trying until the day I die.
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