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Post by tootrickyforyou on Feb 25, 2002 22:52:56 GMT -5
D-Do you have ANY idea how crazy your making? I hate you...and love you so much . I'm crying right now even thinking about you. My feelings are so mixed, I hate the way you flirt with all the other girls. Your supposed to be paying attention to ME. I'M the one who loves you more than any of the other 10 girls (at least) that like you! Your all I think about, everything in the whole damn world reminds me of you. You probably know about me liking you, because I make it so fucking obvious, so why don't you do something about it? Oh yeah, you have to flirt. You couldn't live without flirting, and just me isn't enough. You need the whole school, the whole world to love you. God, your driving me crazy. I hate the fact that I love you so much! When I think of you, I think of that Ten things I Hate About You poem. Ugh, I can't stand how much I love you.
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Post by LaliciaBebe on Feb 25, 2002 23:15:37 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]*M*[/glow] This whole thing is making me nuts. Why can't you just want me as much as I want you? Why do you have to be so damn confusing? I try and try to work this out in my head and in my heart but I don't get it. I know that it's mostly my fault, but sometimes I feel like blaming it on you. Why can't you just see how great we are for eachother? What's wrong with you??? Why can't you just see that I am the person who wants you the most and why can't you see that I will make you happy. [shadow=red,left,300]WHY?[/shadow]
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Post by KattyKatie on Feb 26, 2002 14:48:10 GMT -5
J- You are no better than I am, so don't even think you are.
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Feb 26, 2002 15:43:54 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]D[/glow] You have NO idea how crazy your making me. I'm so mixed up at the moment, and I have so many mixed emotions, I just want to scream out all I feel about you, and see if you even do anything about it. I hate the way you flirt with the other girls, so WHY can I never have you all to myself? I don't think that once I've had a full, real conversation with you, and you not talked to someone else, or talked *about* someone else with it.
[glow=red,2,300]M[/glow] I know you love me, but sometimes you just take it over the top! your WAY to strict with me, and this weekend I'm going to get my hair died, my ears peirced, and just see what you do about it. You drive me crazy.
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Post by LaliciaBebe on Feb 26, 2002 19:57:48 GMT -5
AC: It's so hard. It really is. I want to hate you so badly, and in a way I do, but I can't because you are so nice. But your not right for him. I hope you don't like him. God, it's so difficult to see you and smile and say "Hi!" but inside I want to cry because I know that he wants you and not me. God, that hurts. Please. Just stay away from him. I can't handle this whole thing anymore.
MA: I know that something is wrong. Don't lie to me. I can hear it in your voice and see it in your face. Why won't you tell me? I want everything to be okay for you. I really do. I wish that I could fix it all but I know for sure that I can't. I love you hun and I want you to be happy. I know your lieing when you say you are okay. I know it.
KL: We're not as close as we used to be. Does it bother you? <br> [glow=blue,2,300]*M*[/glow] I want so badly to just tell you everything that I am feeling, but I know that it won't help anything. I want so badly for you just to want me, but I know that you don't. I want so badly for this to all turn out my way, but I know that I can't change your mind. I'm in love with you and it's killing me.
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Post by dizzyupthegirl on Feb 28, 2002 8:49:49 GMT -5
B: Girl u r my bestfriend....! U R! but pls cud u pls stop with the complaining of your weight? I mean u cudnt be 80 pounds when im 90 pound and u know that im skinnier than u! and pls dont act dumb around guys...! I mean all the things u said about hwo loadsof girls are slutty around guys.. and how u hate it... well darling.... u r one of them... S: U said I luv u.. I said I luv u too. But what the hell does that mean? does that mean taht u like me? or does that mean that im one of ur friend and that u care for me? What's the deal? I dont know what i feel towards u.. i really dont. I dont want to say that I'm in love with u. Cuz I think Luv is a strong word. Yet no other words can describe how i feel towards u. And u know that i hate falling in luv with a guy. I know I'm not perfect and I'm not as pretty as Vikky or other girls. But u know that i like u more than friends... so how about telling me how u feel towards me? I wud be alrite even if u said that im only ur friend. Cuz its better to know then not to know at all. And why do u still flirt with her?! i mean god... u said it urself... u dont like her.... then y r u still flirting wit her?! geez... u make me so confused.. i dont know wether i shud be angry at u or wether i shud just be angry at myself. J: Cut the crap okay? u r not one of the coolest ppl in teh school. And dont act all "mature" and have to be a macho man all the time. It sicken me to see u try. just act normal. U dont have to impress ne1. Save ur self the humiliation and the rest of the class... okay?! BL: U r a bitch. No make that THE BITCH! I dont hate u.. its just sicken me that u go flirt with younger guys.. and get their hopes up and at the end break their hearts. Its just not rite. And pls dont act like ur all that... cuz ur not! my gad... even the most popular girls act way better than u. U r a slut and want every guy for urself. And when u do get them.. u tossed them out in a second like a used tissue. I swear... dont u know that guys have feelings too?! Now one of my best guy friend are suffering becuz u broke his heart... M: I luv u!!!!!!!!! U r the best guy friend in the world...! I LUV U! and im here for u.. Im so proud of u that u r trying ur best to get over her. And its working well...! even if u r down.. I'll be here........ur my diary and i luv u...! Lol.. can u see I luv M? hehehehe.. he is the best friend a girl cud have....!
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Post by -*- Little Miss Strawberry -*- on Feb 28, 2002 15:19:46 GMT -5
T - I love you, and sometimes it's really hard for me to say this, and I know I would never be able to say it to your face, but I love you for your friendship and for your humour. I know things will always happen between us, and we'll never be as close as perhaps we could, but recently I've just felt a love for you - friendship-wise - which I haven't particularly felt before. Sometimes I find myself worried you'll prefer people to me, which sucks. I guess I would say you're my best friend, and I do love you heaps in a friendship-kinda way. Just want you to know that.
R - I really do care for you, so it often depresses me when I find you in some mixed up situation. Get it, R, boys aren't going to make you happy... they never will do totally. Never forget that your friends - and that is me and T and co. - know you much better than the "popular" gang. You won't find anything in them that you couldn't find and much more in us. I don't mind you being friends with people, that's totally cool, but don't leave us for them. Don't go on about boys the whole time. They don't matter. Please don't be jealous of me. Please don't try to hide the fact that you're jealous... just admit it and try to move on from it. I'm not perfect, you're not perfect, none of us ever will be.
S - I love you. It's strange, because I can't even comprehend my feelings, but I really do like you... as in *like* you, fancy you... which is weird, because you're supposed to be the bisexual/lesbian, not me. I know I have a boyfriend but you're just so gorgeous, so lovely, and I just love you so much. It's a friendship love more than anything else because I value your friendship, your respect and your understanding so much. Thank you for what you've taught me. I can't understand my own feelings for you, but if you ever died, I would be devastated.
C - Please get some self-image. It's so hard for me to stand there while you put yourself down. I love you heaps, and you have so many gifts, so many abilities, so many doors opening wide for you... if you don't like your weight, attempt to lose it. But please get it into your head that God is the one that will raise up total, true, long-lasting self image, not a boy or friends or being thin. Get into him. Please don't go on about Australia - lovely as it may be, it gets into my head that we're not good enough for you, because we live in England and you want to be in Australia. Life's problems will hit you wherever - your self image here will be the same there. Combat your weight by losing it, doing some exercise, eating less... but most of all, combat the baggage by getting into God again and spiritualising yourself. You'll be so much better for it.
L - You're a nice guy, you really are. I just don't know what to do about you. I fancy SL - or do I? I'm just an insecure teenage girl and you're nice, but I'm just going to end up mucking you around. But there's something of me that's holding onto you because I want the experience, I want to learn. Perhaps thats how you feel about me. I thank you so much for the boost you've made to my confidence, it's done wonders. I thank you so much for the nice guy you are. I want to have something spiritual with you. I want you to be a man after God's heart, like I am a woman after God's heart. I want to pray with you. I want to be able to talk to you about where we're going together. We've been three weeks together and I'm already stressing. We need to talk. Is what we're doing right before God? Do you care anyway? Where are you spiritually?
M - I love you to death, boy... You are amazing and I love you so much I cry for you. It is in-depth, heartfelt, beautiful, Godly, brotherly love. You're my gorgeous brother and... I want to thank you for being you and for the unconditional love that you give me despite my moods and occasional arrogance and irrationality. Thank you... times infinity.
J - the author and perfector of my faith. You rock... like nothing ever has before and never will again. I am a Girl of God... I am yours, and you are mine. Thank you for your love and your forgiveness. Make me humble and wanting to give you unpredictable all-out worship. Come touch me and change me. I am for you, I will do everything for you. Thank you.
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Post by LaliciaBebe on Feb 28, 2002 19:12:07 GMT -5
MA: Where are you?
*M* Why must you keep doing this to me??? Why are you playing with my heart the way you are? Don't you see how much I want you? Don't you see how much you are hurting me? Please. Please see it! Please want me to. I can tell that in some way, you still do.
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Mar 2, 2002 19:39:03 GMT -5
B- What happened? Do you feel it too? The distance between us hurts so bad I cant explain how much I want to scream. I used to see you 5 times a week and call you twice a day and still be able to call you and talk for hours. We could talk forever and there would never be silence on either end... I miss it. I miss you. I know you probably dont feel the same way that I feel about you but I love you. I always will, whether its just as friends or more...I'll always love you, and nothing will change that. It breaks my heart to see you in pain all the time, but I'm affraid if I say anything it will only bring you more. I would die for you, you know that right? Why cant you feel the same way that I feel about you? Why did you stop loving me? I dont understand. How can we be best friends one day and never talk to one another the next. How did this all happen between us? I can settle not being 'together' but I cant settle for not being friends. If only you would see what I'm going through...if only you could see the pain. I'm sure you are in pain too but why dont you show it? Dont you realize its just hurting you? Which only hurts me more in return? I know I'm not the most perfect person in the world...but why dont you love me anymore?
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Post by LaliciaBebe on Mar 3, 2002 18:09:10 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]*M*[/glow] I want you to be happy. I'm trying to move on, but I want to be with you so badly I don't know what to do. I'm trying to focus on other guys. I'm trying not to think of you, but you are everywhere. How is it that we are connected somehow in every part of life. Your everywhere. It's so weird. I can't get away from you. I want to be your friend and I want to be able to be your friend without it breaking my heart. I don't know how to do that, so just bear with me while I figure it out. And if you decide to open your eyes and see that your dream girl is right here, I'll still want you. Even if it seems as though I've moved on a little bit of my heart will always belong to you.
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Post by Semi-Charmed.Life on Mar 3, 2002 18:31:31 GMT -5
m.l.- I love you. I know that I act bitter towards you but I'm going through a lot. I feel that I don't know you enough to tell you about it. Am I wrong? Time will tell.
p.g.- You really don't understand do you? You feel that I'm hiding things from you on purpose. I keep telling you that I have a hard time trusting people but you just keep pushing me.
l.b.- I miss you. I miss our friendship and your wonderful advice. Why is it that the people you care about are always the ones to leave you first?
k.r.- I thought I would never find a friend that would understand me as much as you do. I don't even have to say a thing...you already know. You're such a sweet and caring individual and I'm so grateful to have a friend like you.
n.w.- You are such a hypocrite! Why do you have to lie? You think that I'm going to judge but I really couldn't care less about your pointless actions. You're the one who is so quick to judge. Remember, you aren't any better than us.
m.p.- I thought I loved you but I couldn't have been more wrong. You're just one of those guys who enjoys playing with people's hearts. I cried and cried over you but now I really know....you weren't worth anyone of those tears. You pretended that you were interested and I fell for it. Thats what hurt the most. Know that I think of it, you do have some characteristics that I admire but you just pushed too far. Argh, I really don't know how your girlfriend can put up with you. While I was so infatuated with you, I was blinded. I didn't know E.S. was interested in me. You put him down everyday but guess what? He's more of a man than you could ever be. Goodbye.
E.S.- I'm sorry I ignored you but I just didn't know. I was so blinded, confused and hurt that the rest of the world actually stopped. All I could think of was M.P. but know I know better. I hope that you don't hate me because I never meant to ignore you. You are a great guy. Don't let anyone tell you that you're not.
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Post by LaliciaBebe on Mar 4, 2002 19:55:24 GMT -5
MA: How can you put this all on me. Don't you know what stress and pressure you put me under? How can you stick me with the responsibility of knowing that you are suicidal. Don't you know that I have to tell someone? And you told me about your bulemia too. Didn't you know that I was going to have to tell about that too. What do you want me to do? I can't keep your secrets anymore. I love you and I want you to be okay and I have to betray your trust to keep you safe. I can't help you myself and you can't help yourself. You are sick and you are horribly unhappy and that's not okay with me. As your friend I have to tell someone that you are in trouble. Why do you think that no one cares about you? How can you possibly believe that? I care about you so much that I risked our friendship to save you. I care about you so much that I risked my health to try and keep your secret. I love you so much that I faced my biggest fear and I betrayed you. Don't you see that I love you and I want you to be happy? I don't care if we're not friends anymore as long as you are safe. You mean that much to me. But all you do is complain that no one loves you. *M* loves you. He loves you so much and you don't even see it. He would do anything for you. You didn't see the look of concern he had on his face when he found out you were sick. You didn't see how lost he was on what to do and you didn't see how much he wanted to be able to help. You never saw all that. You only see what you want to see. I can't keep this secret. I can't do it. You say you want to kill yourself and you told me that. I can't keep that inside. I love you too much. I don't know what to do though. I dont' know anyone who doesn't love you Mon. I don't. I don't know anyone who thinks badly of you. You are the most adored person I have ever met, but you hate yourself so much and it makes me sick to see. I'm angry at you Monica, I'm so angry at you. How can you think about taking your own life when you mean so much to those of us who love you. And you are going to give so much to the world, whatever you do you'll be touching lives, and you want to throw it all away. How can you? And you tell me your secrets, so that you won't have to bear them alone, but you never even realize that I have to tell someone. I can't let you die.
*M* today really isn't about you.
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Mar 6, 2002 23:07:07 GMT -5
L:Urg...I'm so jealous of you. Don't you see it? You seem so perfect...and yet you still think you need to improove. Dont you see this? I want to tell you things...but I'm affraid you'll worry about me..I dont want you to worry...because when you worry you start to cry. I can't stand to see the tears in your eyes anymore...it makes me feel like I'm the one causing you all that pain. I can't do that anymore. At the same time I'm affraid if I dont tell you stuff then we will drift apart. I cant let that happen. I'm so confused. Do I make you have pain or do I let our friendship fall apart? I hate this! I hate growing up...I dont want to leave you next year...I'll miss you so much. I know it says "friends forever" but really that never actually is true. Its just all an illusion that we lead ourselves to believe...or maybe its our childlike minds. Filled with curiosity and hope...ugh...why cant time just slow down... J-Ugh you drive me up the walls! It's no wonder you dont have friends! I hate to be mean because I know the feeling of others hating you and mistreating you but you've really brought this upon yourself. I knew you wanted to be popular but I didnt know that you'd sacrifise your friends and selfworth for it. It's like you enjoy hearing others talk about you...THEY ARENT SAYING ANYTHING GOOD! Do you even realize what you are doing to your friends?! Excuse me I mean ex-friends. You've stabbed us all in the back...and then you expect us to keep on lovin ya...I have forgiven you..because I know its the right thing to do...but that doesnt mean that everythings all hunkey dorey ok?! So LEAVE ME ALONE BEFORE I DO SOMETHING I REGRET! N-Don't you realize how much I love you? I love you and it seams like you dont love me anymore. You saved my life... and I dont even think you know it. You may not feel the same way that I feel about you but I thank God above that I met you because without you I dont think I'd be here. Blah it seems like you never talk to me anymore. Its always short answers...and when you do say more then short answers we are usually argueing...blah It is my fault...and you dont see that. I always give you guilt trips...and then I blame things on you...I can understand why you dont love me as much as I love you. I really dont want to loose you..but I just dont know how to keep you as close as I would like. I'm so confused...
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Post by horsesalltheway on Mar 7, 2002 10:22:10 GMT -5
Was this to me Nikki?
"N-Don't you realize how much I love you? I love you and it seams like you dont love me anymore. You saved my life... "
and all of the stuff coming after it?
If so, it's not unsaid now. N-I know and I feel the same way. I wish I could find more time to talk to you but when I'm on your not and when you are I'm not I guess. I'm just way too busy and I wish I wasn't. You saved my life too Nikki. I love you alot you're my hero!
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Post by Semi-Charmed.Life on Mar 8, 2002 0:12:24 GMT -5
m.p.- Now you're pushing it. I thought that we could at least have been "friends" but I really doubt that that will ever happen. What did I ever see in you?
n.m.- How could you be so fake? I mean, when you're with me you're so down to earth and caring but when you're with them you're so fake. Popularity is not important. I just wish you would realize it before it ruins you.
r.t.- Just stop your crap. I really try to be friendly and carry a conversation with you but you always seem to piss me off. You don't realize that most of the things you say offends me but it does. Quit believing that I am always going to forgive you because I certainly won't.
k.r.-I love you. You might not know it but I do. Your such an awesome friend and I can never stand being depressed when I'm with you. Every time I see you, you always lighten my mood and make me smile from ear to ear. Thank you for making me happy and always being there for me. It is greatly appreciated.
whimsy- What can I say? I miss you terribly. I know that you write in our deadjournal but still.....its not the same anymore! I haven't talked to you in a long while and I really want to hear from you. Although we never actually met, you certainly are one of my closest friends. Come online soon. I'll be waiting.
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