::Black Box::

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

Hey,I decided to make my own thread,since I have so many which,to me,are very good. There aren't anyway,yet,called Black Box,but this is what I call them, The Black Box series You'll probably notice why I call them this. Well enough with that,here they are


June-2001
The Day I Died
The day I died
Was all too clear.
The pain,the suffering,
Was all in fear.

The Christmas lights
Were flashing red,
Until I felt something
Hit my head.

Now I'm gone,
As I sit here and stare.
And people are watching,
Without a care.

Now I wish that I was alive,
So that I look back,
At that painful dive.

My family is waiting
Hoping to know,
While I'm drifting away,
In the quiet snow.

Now I find that my heart
Is dead.
Now I know that this is
The End



November-2001
Being Depressed Isn't An Issue

I wake up at night
Only to see your light,
Shining through the surface,
Of my dead body.

My passion is a legacy
My grace is my pride
Your the only one that
Loves me.

The suicide awakens me,
The interest in my death.
The dolls are coming for you,
My life is ending still...

I'm afraid of dying,yet still
Afraid of life.

The first one to admit it
Was so far behind.
My lonliness is killing me,
The hunger for truth is near

My blood is thirsty for
Fear,though my skin is
Withering away.

My face is turning purple
My hands are turning blue
My life has already ended
But no one cares......
Because:
Being Depressed Isn't An Issue

12/13/2001
Voices In My Head
I turn to you
Your making faces
I don't know
What to say to you

You turn around
And make me stay
I'm standing on
The ground

What are you doing
to my heart
my veins are feeling empty

My eyes are turning white
My skin is turning pale
My bones are getting
Shapeless

I'm lying on the ground

The voices are loud
THough your voice is very near
Tears are gliding down
My face,weeping at the sound

M voice is trailing off
I feel so empty
Now your gone
And I'm not crying

Without you,I'm not mourning
But your in my heart
And it will stay that way
Till I die from fear for you



May 15,2002
Angry
All my anger
Is deep inside,I have no fear.
Let it die. The soil makes me weep.
Though nothing more to say.

My anger is deep inside.
Why are you leaving me??
Like burying my cold body
Into the ground. Already half alive.

See me cold and frightened.
I want,though need your corpse.
Make me shudder to think.
Beyond the words,I count.

Your God is nothing,nothing
To me. I'll burn you again. Wait and see.
I love you,but it's time to go.
Ahead of time,we need to go

My anger makes me kill. Your songs
Make me cry. The power of your beauty,
Will soon make me die.

Your flesh will shrivel into my thoughts
As I eat you all away. As I write what I
Can do,I send you all away.

As I leave,this message can't die.
You have to be ready--ready to die.
We have to face death as it may come.
This hurt may come. We will come.



To Be Continued......


~~~~~~Heather,(Edward Furlong,Mike Shinoda,Chester Bennington,KidRock & Joe C. LOVER!!!!!! Linkin Park RULES!!!!!!)

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

On this post,I'm just gonna say what the meaning to these poems are.

The Day I Died :: This one,I felt what it would be like to be the one who was dying. Something no one else could feel. Something I could control.

Being Depressed Isn't An Issue:: This is the one,who I think,that some people will look at as if its negative towards someone who is actually having depression problems. I *do* know its an issue. But this poem,is how I feel about how you feel depressed but no one really doesnt seem to care.

   Voices In My Head:: Actually I have no meaning to this one. I came up with it when I was trying to post something on another website. So this is what I came up with.  

Angry:: This is the type of thing that people will all look at differently. You can think what it means,it doesnt matter. But Ill just say what it means to me,  ;D . To me,for me,it means how angry I feel when we lose someone. Someone who has passed away. It makes me mad how I dont know if theyre ok or not.. I feel like we should know how it feels to d die. But we should all be prepared when that day comes for us. This is what I think,so alot of you may have  totally different opionion.  

 

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

 Ok,I wrote these today when I was bored in 2nd period.

                 The Little Girl

The little girl sat waiting,waiting all alone.
The darkness whispers to her,waiting for her to follow.
She creeps through her bedroom with small tiny feet.
Her little arms by her side. She's ready for this ride.
Her little friend tells her, "Jump In.. Get In. Hold Tight"
She climbs into the car and waits and waits...and waits.
She starts to feel fuzzy,to see little swirls.
Th colors green and black and blue,can obly be seen,from her view.
She twists and turns,but she cannot see
What her friend has done to her.
Her friend has been killing her all this time
As she begins to think back,when she's go out
And smoke  her friend,till he went out.
Though she's still alive,she cannot find 'em.
Maybe because she's too young,to have a friend like him.


             Knock Me Down

Knock me down,I dare you.
Make me hit my head.
Make me cut my arm
Make me die-asleep.
Come closer. Let's make it look right.
My arms are open to you.But still you die of fright.
Make my windows break. And make my house burn.
Make my ceiling creek,and make my kettle churn.
Make my ghost look scary.
And make my power grand.
Knock me down,I dare you.
And make me hit my head.


                           Johnny's Ghost

               

Dear Johnny,you're so beautiful.I saw you today. You body was as white as snow and your eyes were peircing blue.Your skin was cold,but your eyes were warm. You did not scare me away. You looked real handsome in your black suit. Oh Johnny how I miss you,though your in a better place. A place where I can see yor power and your grace. You looked at me and smile,and I smiled back too. Then you disappeared...Oh how I love you too. Oh Johnny I miss you with all my heart. Need I say more?? You always made me smile. You sang me to sleep each night. Johnny please don't forget me. Love you and always.

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

The Little Girl ~This is about a young girl who is on drugs. I didn't know if I should put it on here,but I went ahead and did. It's just about drugs. And if you notice 'her little fiend' was actually the drugs she was taking.


Knock Me down~ Again,I was bored  so I was just going along with what was inside my little mind. So I have no idea what this is about. hmm......

 Johnny's Ghost~ Actually on this one,I was thinking about this song I remembered singing when I was like in the 4th grade about a ghost or something. So I wrote this,like a letter and went from there. *shrugs*

  Again,I was bored,and I didnt have much time to think,thats why they seem kind of...weird.

[x n0ise]

Those are really good, Heather!  ;D  I love'em!  Keep'em comin girl!  

~Haley~

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

Hey,thanX,spasti-y......But I do have to admit,that I don't think that   the last 3 are very good to me (The little girl,Knock Me down~is ok~,and Johnny's Ghost)......

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

Kurt Cobain

I look to the sky
I see your eyes
They glow like the moon and the stars
I follow the path-To your heart I cry
I look up to the sky.

I followed your words
Though I never knew
Your a friend to me inside
Your hand touched mine
You told me not to cry
I looked to you in thesky.

In your footsteps,I followed
As you lead the way
My love is neverending
So please always stay

You make my life miserable
Sometimes you make me mad
Angry is the best word
You usually make me sad.

If I ever met you
I'd hug you till the end
Your the best person. Husband. And my friend.


Dedicated to Kurt Cobain::RIP::1967-1994


I Cry

Last night I cried for hours
Cause you left me behind
I was so distracted
Your image was stuck in my mind.

Your heart touched my thoughts
I wish I could die
I'd be with you forever
Up in the sky with the angels that fly.
I'm so lonely cause your in my head
And I'm still sad.

I've been locked
Inside you heart-shaped-box
And I never want out.
Sometimes I might
But keep me safe inside.

Last night I cried for hours
But I couldn't wait
I cried and cried and cried
I guess I made a mistake

You got very angry
Told me to be still
I told you I was sad
But you didn't care.

You want me to be happy
I'll try not to be depressed
You looked into my eyes-and told me to be still
Don't worry,Kurt,because I will.

I might cry in the future.
I might not cry at all.
I might just think of you.
And remember who you are.
I cried last night for hours
-Hoping for your best

Now it's time for your go.
And hopefully some rest.

Kurt Cobain::RIP::


Dottie
In all this deep sad sorrow
I soon see your face
It makes life seem better
Without the names and race.

I see your thoughts--Frightening thoughts
Of your suicide I see
The battle with drugs and alchohol
Your still the best to me!!

It makes me happy to hear you songs
Along with bandmates::Krist and Dave
You played your songs-both happy and sad
But because you wrote them it's made my day.

In your suicide note you left
You said you hated singing
You didn't appreciate the singing and the songwriting
(I don't see how...Your great!!)

Please come as you are
Your still the best to me
I hope to see you sooner
But first we'll wait and see.

You inspired my heart to be with my soul.
You inspired my mind to work as a whole.

I hope to see you again-maybe like in Heaven...??
Please wait for me and don't give up...
I'll come as soon as I can.

Kurt Cobain::RIP::

~*These three (3) poems were written by myself on June 18,2002. In memory of Kurt Cobain of Nirvana::RIP::

[Ragebøx]

Wow, these are terrific poems .
I adore "The Day I Died", "Knock Me Down", and "Johnny's Ghost". I love the symbolism behind "The Little Girl"; it's very creative. The three Kurt Cobain poems are very good as well. I love the emotion behind them all and the thought you put into each poem.

"I'm afraid of dying, yet still afraid of life."
- Being Depressed Isn't An Issue

I really loved that line for some reason. There's just something about it.
Keep up the great work, and add more as you write them. I'd really like to read more.

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

Thanks,Rachel.


I almost didn't post 'the Little Girl' because I didn't want someone who like smokes or something to get offended in a way.I'm glad you like though


Also,that line in 'Being Depressed Isn't An Issue' one,my friend,Ashley,said that she likes that part too because she's also afraid of death and life.


I put alot of thought in alot of these. Escepcially the ones to Kurt. And if you noticed in 'I Cry' there are sone lyrics to three (3) songs. If you or anyone caouoght that.

[Punk Rebelist]

"The battle with drugs and alchohol
Your still the best to me!!"

I really liked those lines.... I liked all of them, you have talent, girl..

-Punk

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

Thanks,Punk.



All of my great poems (all the ones I have posted on here) Are the ones I wrote when I was very depressed.I write retarded crap when I'm happy. ;D

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

Hey!! Finally one called Black Box

Black Box
Written:: 6/30/02

I have a box
Filled with night time jitters.
Waiting to be opened
By nightmares forth come.

Inside this box of misery
Is blood and bones and bodies
Filled with people dying.
And filled with people crying.

Satan come save us.
They want to say.
He'll stab our hearts
With our own bones.

He'll take us away
Into the night
We'll plead and beg

He won't listen to thee.
Inside our black box
Satan will follow me.

[violet_rose]

hey!, I'm black_silk from MC and I adore your poetry each word is amazing.

In your footsteps,I followed
As you lead the way
My love is neverending
So please always stay

I love the *kurt cobain* pomes there beautiful!, keep up the amazing poetry!.

[HairsprayQueen]

^^^^^^
Thanks black_silk,or should I say violet_rose?? Heh.

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

I'm My Own Enemy
July 4,2002

I shattered my thoughts against a window.
I played tricks on my mind.
I whispered to myself
You said I was the one.

I shattered the glass against the door.
In mos angist pain.
I lost my sight
Looking into the window payne.

I'm hurting so much,I can't breathe
I shattered my thoughts
Against you.

You promised me nothing. I was happy.
I shattered my thoughts
On the window payne.

.Not that good...Oh Well.