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Post by tootrickyforyou on May 22, 2003 18:37:28 GMT -5
Bo: AHH, you posted! That's really cool that you and Noah are friends again! I'm really happy for you *smiles* Chris: Things seem to be going well with Michael! That's really good, good luck hun! Have you guys heard the song by Daniel Bedingfield? It's called "If you're not the one", and it reminds me so much of my situation with pat right now it's scary....ugh, I start crying almost every time I hear it...especially now. Anyways, here are a few of the lyrics that really touch me. I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head? ‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today ‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right And though I can’t be with you tonight And know my heart is by your side It's a really great song. Well, I've been avoiding Pat MAJORLY because I REALLY REALLY REALLY need to get over him and I had ALMOST done it today until he signed my friends yearbook. It just talked about her and Rob, then it said "I'm really not as bad as you and Nichole think I am." and it totally just threw me off, because what if it's really true? But I know that Rob wouldn't lie about something like that, but I miss him so much and he's so perfect besides that....honestly, if it wasn't for that ONE thing, then he would be totally and completely perfect....and I miss spending time with him so much
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Post by tootrickyforyou on May 24, 2003 13:09:46 GMT -5
Well, I went to Pat's graduation last night. He is SUCH a dork...he got his diploma and walked out of the building! He walked out of his graduation! Me and Lily were just sitting there laughing, then we saw Rob get up and leave and we left because Lily wanted to go see him. We met up with him and we were all looking for Pat, then we finally found him and the four of us were just hanging out together. Then when it was over he left to go to a party and I was really sad because I knew what was going to happen. Anyways, me and Lily were staying after for a while, then we were talking to her mom and he walked by with this girl and he was like "See ya later Nichole!" So I said "See you! Congratulations!" and I'll probably never see him again...It's really sad, but it will be good because I'll have the chance to get over him and stuff *sighs*
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on May 24, 2003 20:15:12 GMT -5
*dances around and throws confetti* yayness!!!someone else posted!! Nice to9 hear from ya, Bo! I'm really glad that you and Noah are back talking. That's awesome that you had such a meaningful experience at the lock-in. Nichole: I know you're hurting...and I'm sorry you have to go thru this, but it's gonna make you stronger in the long run. I don't really know what to say, but keep on going. There will be other guys, who are not druggie, alcoholic mansluts (lol). Good luck! *sigh* I'm still on a high from yesterday. We went to Elitches, that 6-flags, and it was a blast. I did get my shoulders sunburned. But anyways, me and Mike were like...holding hands and arms and stuff the whole time! We got asked like 4 bazillion times if we were going out (or 'going', as Johnathan put it..lol). I think that got the courage up for me to ask him out. Even Amanda thinks i should, and they're like almost best friends. But yeah, we (me, Mike and Amanda) were together the whole like 4/5 hours, and at some point Amanda wandered off and me and mike were just going on rides together. We went on the water ride that gets you DRENCHED like 3 times alone together. We decided to have a 'wet t-shirt contest', and he won. But only cause he took off his shirt. pshht. lol And we were waiting in line for this one roller coaster, and we got reeeally bored, and so we were like facing eachother while holding hands (the interlocked fingers type, not the cupped-hands type. that's how it was the whole time we were there too *dances*). Then i would lean towards him and he would push me back against the railing with his arms, kinda like he was doing push-ups. And sometimes I would get like really close to his neck and it was just like '...aaaaaahhhh so......tempting....*twitch*' For a while we were like jokingly blowing in eachotehr's ears and stuff. And we were walking around with him holding my arm (like they do to escort ladies to their seats at weddings or whatever) and then he like grabbed my hand and started playfully squeezing it, Then I would squeeze back, etc. He has bigger hands and feet than I do! and he's like an inch or 2 shorter than me! llol When we discovered his feet were bigger than mine, he goes 'and you know what they say about big feet, dontchya...*grin*' so I started laughing...it was great. lol I feel so bad for him though. We went on this ride together, and whe the chick put the harness on him, she pressed it down really hard, and the crotch thing just rammed into him. He and the guy next to him both went 'aaaargh my nuts!!' at the same time. And their faces got all red. I felt bad for them. when the chick asked everyone if we were ready, the other guy goes 'I got a nut shoved in my stomach so yeah, I'm ok!' hehe but he let me wear his hat, too. *sigh* he's so perfect. After i got home from the barn (i went straight to the barn after we got back to school), my dad said that he had called, and so I called him back and we proceeded to talk for liek an hour and a half until his mom came home (he's grounded until tuesday...naughty boy! go to my room... ) Life is so good...I want his mom to go dancing again so he can call me. lol I told him to offer to babysit his 8 month old sister Sydney, but she didn't really go for it. But she want dancing last night, and she loves dancing, so who knows. It is a Saturday night and she does have a boyfriend. *shrug* Anyhoo, off to be in the clouds somewhere else...my mom said it perfectly: 'I don't like you having a boyfriend, but he sure makes you happy!' which he does. I've been on a constant high for the past 3 weeks, ever since me and him started talking. My horseback riding trainer said she has even noticed a change in my riding. And speaking of riding, I had my first jumping show today, and I got 2 seconds out of 4 classes. I should have gotten placed in my other class, but I got lost in the 15 + people, and the judge didnt see me. Owell. I did get 2nd in my Equitation over fences! ok anyways, I'm really going now...I promise. lol
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Post by averagegurl on May 29, 2003 14:46:28 GMT -5
OMG!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!!!! ok.... i shud calm down... cuz it meant nothing.. but still.! Neway... last nite was the formal.. and i went with chris as my date. But then he got pissed at me or sumthing.. i forgot. Then i start to dance with noah... and i forgot just how good he cud dance! I mean damn! Well neway... he was there with this girl name sim. At the last song she was with this guy dancing but then she noticed that i was with noah, so she went over and told me that i was stealing her date. So i backed away from noah and told her that im sorry and i said that she cud dance wit noah if she wants to. But then noah said taht sim already has a guy to dance with and so he kept on dancing with me. ! Neway.... after the dance he left right away, while i hang back with a couple of friends. So i called him but he wudn't picked up ( i called cuz i wanna know where he was... since i cudnt find him with his freinds. ). He sms me saying taht he already went home and that it was nice dancing with me. And then we kept on smsing ( is there such a word as that?!) and then he asked me if i was going to the movies tmr. I told him what movie.. and he told me to meet him at the mall. So i went to the movies today.. but i was going to go neway with my other friends. But i had to have a reservation so since one of my friends cudnt make it tonite i got her ticket. We were gonna watch The Matrix ( btw...it was an ok movie) . But when i was gonna pay for my ticket, noah asked me if i want to sit with him and his friends. I said alrite and so i went with him ( he even paid my ticket!). Well he sat with his friends so i sat wit my friends. Just when the movie was about to start, he told me to sit next to him, so i did. Anyway, we were watching the movie.. and we start to flirt with each other. I swear... it was soooo tempting to kiss him! He was always whispered something stupid and flirty near my ear... and damn his voice!!! and he was like putting his arm around me and stuff. ok... fast forward..... we end up smsing each otehr again after we left for home, and he asked if i enjoyed the movie. I told him that he cud have made it more interesting ( hinting i wish he kissed me!). And he message back saying that he was afraid that i'll slap him. DAMN IT!!! i wrote back saying that i don't really mind. So then he was like... ok, we shud go again to see a movie next week. But i don't like him as that ( i dont think so..). So we mite just be friends with benefit. Cuz ugh... he is amazing kisser!!!! Rite now i'm hitting myself for not kissing him in the first place!!!! ugh....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!! so yea.. that's my nite.... i think i'm gonna kiss him as soon as i saw his face. lolz....
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Post by averagegurl on May 30, 2003 5:08:22 GMT -5
AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE LIKES ME AGAIN!!!!!!
I'm torn between feelings! i mean i kinda still like him, but only like a crush. But he told me taht he doesn't want to go out.. but he likes me... cuz its pointless to go out since school wud be over soon and then we'll be in different parts of the world. So we're gonna be just friends... but knows taht both of us like each other.
I wasted soooo much money last nite!!!! my cell phone bill is sooo high!!! cuz i sms with him for like 2 hours! lolz..!!!!
but u know what??? i don't feel the " omg.. he likes me!!" but i just feel " cool.. i'm gonna have a fling... yippe!!". lolz.... so i dont like him THAT much.. just enough to like him. lolz... im hyper!!!!
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Jun 2, 2003 14:58:03 GMT -5
Sorry I haven't been here forever! I had a week-long camp thing that had to do with my religion so I've been gone for a while. anyways, I'm completely over with the manslut (Otherwise known as Pat) and there we SO many hott guys at my thing, and they all had good standards and everything too, so I'm happy ;D. There was this REALLY cute guy named James that I danced with at one of the dances, and I got a picture with him and everything! I didn't get any information about him though, so that kind of sucks, but what can you do? I got a digital camera, so I'll put his picture on here and you guys can see how sexy he is .
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Post by averagegurl on Jun 6, 2003 4:25:55 GMT -5
Oh boy... where to start?! Well this week has been completely weird. Well i posted before that he likes me and stuff... but on sat. he decided that he doesn't like me as that. So i was pretty sad and stuff but i get over it. But on Monday, I was staying after school and we were hanging out with a couple of ppl at this empty classroom. I joked with him that i wish i cud kiss him and that he owed me one anyway, since at the movies he wanted to kiss me. So i dunno really what happened, but we end up kissing, then all of our friedns left the room and one of my friend, and i quote, said " Ugh... kissing is enjoyable.. .but watching u two are just nasty!" Lolz........!!!!!! Well we end up making out and we became sort of like friends with benefit. And i dont really mind... i mean.... damn he cud kiss! So the next day.... on tuesday.... we stayed after school again and do our lil " activities". But we were in the middle of things when a security guard of our school walks into the room! It was sooooo embarrasing... then after that... one of my bestfriend walks in.. and she was like " OMG!!!! WHAT THE HELL ?!" then she ran out of the room screaming and screamed that me and noah were making out. It was pretty funny.... But on wed. i was having P.E. and i found out that sim ( noah's date to the formal) kinda likes him, and boy did i get a glare! She found out that we've been making out and stuff and if looks cud kill i wud have been dead by now. So that nite ( wed. nite) i went out with a group of friends and we went to a sheesha place to smoke sheesha. Sheesha for those of u who doesn't know is this arabic thing... that u smoke and it taste really nice. I luv it! lolz.... well neway..... noah and his friends came to our tent and we smoked. I was pretty out of it when they came... cuz i've been smoking non stop for at least half an hour. So when they came... i was talking weird stuff. And then i sat next to noah and start kissing him.. but he pulled back saying he wasn't in the mood. So i was like... alrite.. no big deal. I turn to another guy in the couch and it was john. I end up sitting on his lap sharing his sheesha pipe and we end up kissing. Lets just say taht he's not the perfect guy for me to kiss. but i was crazy so i probably end up making out with him or sumthing. One thing that u guys have to know is that i sumtime get so out of it that i dont remember the nite. So this stuff that im telling u is the stuff that my friends told me. So apparantly i was kissing him and stuff. Well to make long story short... noah was jealous! cuz he sms me the next day and told me that he was jealous. And last nite i went out dancing and i had a great time with a couple of my friends. Then i end up smsing with him after i got home and he told me that he has been thinking about me from wed. nite and he cudnt get me out of his mind. But then i had to go to sleep cuz i was soooo tired... ( my feet still hurts from last nite!) and so i haven't heard from him. So yea.... that was my week.... really weird huh?
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Jun 7, 2003 14:48:16 GMT -5
Hey guys! Sorry I haven't been on lately. Our computer crashed and our internet has been kinda weird lately. Anyhoo, me and Michael have been together for like 2 weeks now :-D I just got so tired of this game we were playing so When we were passintg notes in history, i was like 'so are you ever gonna ask me out or do I have to do it' and he's all 'no you don't. Will you go out with me?' So we've been very happy We haven't kissed yet, cause everytime I was gonna kiss him (he's never been kissed, so I'm gonna hafta make the first move I'm guessing), someone would walk in (my mom, dad, sis, etc). But we wanna get together again soon. My friend Jordan asked me at cheer last week ' so have you and your boyfriend broken up yet?' I'm like 'no...why' and she's all 'cause he sounds hott!!' and then yesterday, my 23 y/o sister was like 'Dang, he's pretty cute for a 14 year old!' lol I need to tell you guys about Travis and Phillip (friends of mine from the coffee shop) but I'm too lazy to type all of it and my mom's gonna yell at me soon. ttyl!!
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Post by averagegurl on Jun 8, 2003 7:33:55 GMT -5
Edge: now... if ur 23 year old sis said that ur bf is hot.. then honey u betta send me a pic of him! lolz....!! he must be hot then!Congrats! Well..... nothing happen in my life. Ok... so thats a complete lie.. Me and noah? well we're alrite i guess. On Friday nite, i came home late from dinner wit my parents and the next day i have exams! so i was ( as usual) cramming it on the last minute. So i have busy studying for my science exam when i got a message from him. We end up smsing each other for like 2 hours ( spent so much money again! ugh.. i betta stop!) So... i didn't get much studying. lolz... he was distracting me! i told him that .. and he said " its ok. I know u'll do well. I luv you!" so yea.. Neway... we havent spoke for a while now... cuz ive been busy studying for my exams, but today i went back to school to pick up my sis ( my school has a kinder garten, elementary, middle school, and high school) and i saw him after his last class. We didn't make out or nething, cuz i cant stay long ( DAMN! ). But he looked soooooooooooooooooo GOOODDDD!!!!! cuz he just had P.E. and he was all flushed and cute looking.. and it took a lot of self control to just give him a peck and leave. Ugh..... i wanna make out wit him...!!! cuz he is so damn good!!!!! agh....!!!! Can't wait till this tuesday, cuz its our last day of school and its a half day, so we're gonna PARTY! which means... major make out session with him I dunno if i like him.... but i dont.... we're just using each other. He doesn't know if he likes me as that or not, but when i asked him who he likes he said " i dunno, maybe you." I wish he was my next door neighbor!! but its summer soon and we'll be at opposite end of the world! Don't u just hate it when u finally find some fun, it's almost the end?! ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Jun 8, 2003 21:47:49 GMT -5
girls...i need help. I really like Michael (obviously), but I have started to like Travis. He's like 3 inches taller than me, dark complexioned, really buff (he likes to come up behind me, pick me up and twirl me around, and i'm like 125 lbs), really awesome and a Christian. Last night was when I admitted it to myself. i saw his dad today and he's like 'so you still got that boyfriend' and i'm all 'yeah' then he's all 'then why you gettin' sweet with my boy? i see the way you guys were sitting last night when you were watching that movie' i was sitting alone on the loveseat then he came in and sat next me with his legs on my lap. and like if i pretend to be scared when we're watching Signs or somethng, he'll say 'oh it's ok' and pat my knee. and it's just...AHHHH
I'll explain more later, but ppl keep coming in here so I have to minimize. ttyl!
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Jun 9, 2003 3:22:13 GMT -5
mmk I'm just gonna copy and paste from an email I sent to my friend, so pardon the repeating of anything: I still like Mike, but I like Travis too (black hair, brown eyes, like 3 inches taller than me, really buff, a bad boy, NOT a prep, goth, Avril Lavigne-type punker, or creepy guy, but an alternative i-don't-have-a-style typea guy (like me), a blinding white really nice smile, dark complexioned but not too dark, just nicely tanned, wears some sort of cologne that smells really good, sneaks up behind me all the time and picks me up and swings me around, etc. lol) and he likes me, he has met Mike, always asks if I'm still with him, his little bro and a cpl of his other friends keep saying he really likes me and wants to go out with me really bad, he always flirts w/ me, always sits next to me really close, has a thing with putting his hand on my leg, he always smiles at me in church, he'll come up behind me and pick me up then twirl me around or put me over his shoulder, gives me piggy back rides, likes to wrestle with me for his hat, chain, whatever, and likes to put me in situations where if I didn't hjave a boyfriend I would kiss him (unknowingly, ofcourse). Like yesterday, we were the only kids our age at the coffee shop at like 10:30 pm last nite, and so we went in the back 'hangout room' to watch Signs. I stole his hat, so he kinda twirled me around, but he fell on his back on the floor and kinda pulled me down on toppa him, and I'm just tyhinking to myself "man If I didn't have a bf, I would be kissing you right now" And he always comes up and gives me hugs, and when I screamed to make fun of the movie (at the part the alien leg goes into the field in Signs), he gave me a side hug and patted me knee sayng 'it's ok' and he also likes to tickel me, and he likes to put his hand on my thigh right above my knee. And it doesn't help that he's totally hott and smells totally eatable. lol Last nite I was squished between him and Phillip on the loveseat, and so then the Travis side on my sweatshirt smelled all good and later on he was like cuddling with it, and later when I woke up at like 4 am being all cold, I put my sweatshirt on and was practiaclly inhaling the thing. lol I told him I likes him yesterday when we were watching the movie. He was kinda leaning on toppa me to get his chain, and he said somethin like 'oh you liek that huh? you know you like it...' or something about me wanting to get it on with him or something (*shrug*) in his 'sexy voice' and i was laughing and stuff and then he had been tickeling me so I got up amnd sat on the other couch, and he said something like 'oh you know you like it' and he said something else and I said 'well I do like you' and he's all 'why didn't you tell me sooner?' and I'm all 'cause today was when I admitted it to myself' and he went 'I was waiting for that.' with his big shiney grin that makes me melt. He might have winked or something but it was dark so I couldn't tell. *wimpers* heeeelp
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Jun 11, 2003 14:15:37 GMT -5
Chris: *hugs* I'm sorry! I don't know what to do about your situation... umm, maybe you could make a pros and cons list about each of them? I've never been in a situation like that so I wouldn't know what to do. Good luck hun!!
Bo: Wow, I don't know what to say. I guess that's a good thing, but just be careful! Good luck!
Ohhhhhhh my goodness. I ran into Pat at the dentists office, stupid kid...well, actually, my mom was in a dentists appointment and I was out in the car because the smell makes me sick. Anyuways, I had the window rolled down and everything and I see Pat walking past me holding his skateboard. I knew that Rob's house was right by the office so I figured he was going there. I was trying to hide cause I don't want to talk to the kid, but he saw me and came over and talked with me for about five minutes. It's a good thing though, because now I'm 100% sure that I'm over him because even after I talked to him I still hated him, so that's good.
Oh yeah...It's summer and I have no social activities or anything (summer school or whatever) so I won't be here. I'm lurking though, and I'm reading all your guys' ocmments!!
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Jun 12, 2003 0:30:07 GMT -5
well I'm getting better I think. Although today i was saying something to this kid about how I could kick Travis and he won't do anything, but if he kicks Travis, he'll get his butt whooped, and instead of saying 'i can kick him whenever i want' I said "i can kiss him anytime I want' on accident...his eyes got all wide...I'm like 'ooooh crap how do I get outta this one' I was thinking about kissing him and Mike when I said it and it just kinda slipped out. I'm like oooh crap...lol
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Jun 28, 2003 0:01:21 GMT -5
gaah this is soooo dead!! bah
Well i'm back to normal, FYI. Michael came over today ;D;D;D it was fun. We went to a park. yay.
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Sept 12, 2003 17:44:47 GMT -5
You're kidding me.
NO ONE has updated since JULY?!?!?!?!?!??! Oohhh my goodness...this is insane...
EEP! Okay, ya'll remember James, right? Well I saw him at the beginning of this year, and I realized just how fine that boy was! I didn't want it to be like last year, where I just kind of sat there and looked at him from afar, and I really didn't feel like just walking up to him and being like "Hey James, what's up? YOu don't know me, but i think you're sexy, so yeah." so I decided to write notes in his locker annonymously. These have been going on for a while, and he is SO cute! I'm on the verge of telling him right now...I think I'll tell him my initials next time he writes back, and if he has a yearbook, he'll probably be able to figure it out. *melts* He is seriously SUCH a cutie though! If I had time I'd tell you all about him, but I can't cause I've had WAY too much homework this year....and that's why I'l probably only be updating on the weekends...of course, this is all assuming people are actually going to READ IT, so everyone get your butts in here, I want otk now how you're doing with your guys!!!!!!!!
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