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Post by averagegurl on Mar 29, 2003 9:18:48 GMT -5
ok.... TO ALL OF YOU CHIKAS: I'm so proud of you guys! I mean i only scan ( Sorry! I dont really have a lot of time on the net nowadays...) but from what i read here and there, you guys have move on.. and some of u already pursue another fish....! lolz... ok... moving along. I think Nichole ask me if i go to FanFiction.net, and yep.. i do go there....!!!! I'm not a member yet.. but i read loads of the stories. AND my faves are the Harry Potter fan fics! So what's ur penname there?? and if u have ne stories... tell me the title and i'll read it! Ok... sorry that was a bit out of topic... hehehe Well today is the day we get back to school from spring break.. ugh. School as usual is the ol' same thing. But today there was a lot of drama.... and ugh.. i just hate dramas! I mean as in too many gossips and rumors... But today... for the first time, i looked at noah and i just feel nothing towards him. I dunno.. maybe becuz im sick and tired of him, maybe i really have let go, or maybe cuz there are so many guys out there for me. Lolz... i flirt like hell today wit noah's bestfriend....! lolz.. he's a cutie and he aint bad at flirting. His friends also flirted wit me and ahhh... they're so adorable! and u guys remember john yea? Well not that i like him as a bf or nething, but today he looks kinda yummy... and i forgot just how sexy his voice cud be... ummm... But i gotta say one thing about noah. Ugh.. today this girl and i were arguing, and he was there, but he told me " bo, let it go.." so i turned to him and told him to mind his own business. And u knwo what? next time he tries to make me do sumthing, i'll tell him taht i cud take care of myself, thank you very much. Ugh.. today was sooooo dramatic... ugh!!!!!! And *sumhow* i always get involve in it. Even though im perfectly fine just being the audience. ok.. i gotta released my anger sumwhere else cuz i reliazed that im out of topic now.....
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Mar 29, 2003 23:29:48 GMT -5
oh god...oh all people, why do i have to be thinking abouy jay. all day. every day *sigh*
mmk, let's start at the beginning. See Jay was my first guy best friend. we used to live like 2 minutes away from eachother, so we would go to eachother's houses like every day when we were young. we used to go to church together, but then he moved to Pullman, WA, on the other side of the state. so we lost touch.
then he moves back, but like 2 hours away, and we still didnt really see eachother. then 2 years ago at my sisters wedding, we see eachother for the first time in years. I think the only words exchanged were 'hi...you look different' (I'm kicking myself now, wondering why I didn't really say anything else). the majority of it was just staring so after he leaves the reception, we dont see eachother for 2 years.
then, like 6 months ago, he comes with his cousin and friend to church, who goes to my church. that was the ONE day i wore a skirt, go figure. so I've never really been interested in Vince, and we havent seen eachother in ages (he used to torment me when we were little...he was an evil little child). so Vince comes to church with this absolutely GORGEOUS guy in a white hat pulled down and nice baggy-but-not-too-baggy jeans and a nice shirt. I couldnt figure out who the hell he was, I just knew he was really hott and had a really nice smile. So we were all like staring at eachother, Vince and Jay at me, me at mainly Jay (haha) while our parents are talkiing for like a half an hour. I'm standing by my mom talking to Vince's mom, and Jay and Vince go behind Vince's mom and look at me. Vince's mom said something like 'you two remember eachother, right? Vince?' and so the guys wave and I wave back, but we still keep staring
then Jay goes out more in the open and mom asked someone who he was. then he pulled his hat up out of his face, and he has the most beautiful smile, not to mention really nice eyes. and he's like 15, btw. and tall. anyhoo, so he's standing there kinda slouched over, and smiling his gorgeous smile, staring at me and semi-talking to my mom.
then we all split up and i havent seen him since.
so this past week, I havent been able to keep him out of my head. I've had more than one dream about him. the last one was today during my nap...lots of neck kissing. lol
So anyhoo, I was riding my horse today, and the majority of the time (when I wasn't trying to get my horse's head down or something), I was thinking about him. The funny thing is, is that everytime we've seen eachother, we couldn't keep our eyes off eachother. And when we were young, my sisters would always say I'm gonna marry him. To which I would always say 'eeeew nooo groooooss I'm not marrying anybody!!' lol Adn the thing is, is that his parents and my parents are really good friends, he's a Christian, and I asked my mom today if she would let me go out with him if we lived near eachother and knew eachother, etc, and she said yes (keep in mind I'm not allowed to date until I'm 16). And I just...ugh It's almost to the point where it hurts. I can't keep him outta my head. Heck today on my way home from the barn, I was wondering how his hands look. Were they big and rough, small and soft, medium, what. He's gonna be really tall, his dad is well over 6 feet, and his 3 older (and pretty cute) brothers are over 6 feet, and when I saw him last, he was only 15 and pretty tall. So THIS SUCKS!!!! And I'm over 1000 miles away. I email my friend for his email address though...so it's a start :-)
Any help would be GREATLY appreciated. *sigh*
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Mar 31, 2003 0:31:48 GMT -5
Hey Gurlies... I've read all your posts...I'm just honestly too lazy to reply to them...sorry! Good luck babes! Tony: hey Me: Hey Tony: sup Me: not much just chillin Me: you? Tony: homework Me: fun fun Tony: yup Me: my face hurtsssssss Tony: why did you put that stuff on Me: to heal it....it just...stings to heal it...it looks better already..its not as fried looking..but oofta Tony: what did you do to it Me: the sun fried it yesturday Tony: dang Me: ya...i didnt notice it until afterwards cuz you cant tell when you're burning...so....ya...but my arms are tan.. Tony: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh Me: ya... Tony: i bet you look really hott Me: lol dont make me laugh it hurts Me: but thanx...lol Me: it hurts...owch...eyes...watering Tony: the heat made you even more of a hotty Me: :-D ouch... Me: i'm sure you look realllllyyy good tan too Tony: i dont an very easily Me: thats ok...i've heard you have a good body anyway Tony: where have you heard that Me: names will remain unnamed Tony: tell me and ill tell you someone who thinks you have a nice bod Me: lol and lucy and sara were looking at your arms lol and nathaniel and a few other people Me: but shhhhhhhhhhh i didnt tell you that Tony: my friends who were talk ing to you last night Me: I dont know them though!! Me: but...okies Tony: they think your hott Me: :-) fun... Tony: and they thought i was stupid Me: why stupid? Me: oh for not liking me? Tony: never mind Tony: yeah Me: well you arent stupid cuz i'd rather have you like me for me and like me as your choice..not someone elses Tony: you are very well being Me: huh? well being? Tony: you like thing for the best Me: yup yup Tony: thats cool Me: :-) *sigh* I miss him...
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Post by PhillyBlunts on Mar 31, 2003 15:41:03 GMT -5
Ass. I love a nice ass. Omg.
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Mar 31, 2003 20:56:15 GMT -5
*cries* Why me? I'm doingj ust fine, obsessing over a really hot shy guy, and suddenly I'm in love with a guy who's in love with my best friend . Ugh, I've ALREADY liked the damn guy, why can't we just stay friends?! I feel so crappy right now... I'm sure that at least *some* of you remember Wayne, correct? the guy I met over the internet? Yeah, well, he's the guy. I've been HATING the idea of Lily (my best friend) and wayne's liking each other for a while, but I thought it was because they never stopped talking each other. Nope, that wasn't it. I'm freaking in LOVE with Wayne. ugh, they got in a really big fight yesterday and she wasn't talking to him, and Lily was talking bada bout him to me, while in the other window (it was on the internet) I was trying to make wayne feel better, and I thought it was just because we were friends and I didn't want to see him get hurt, but after Lily left, I was talking to Wayne for a while, and I suddenly realized "I'm in love with this guy!" So I hurried and got off, and talked to my Lily for a while...she pried it out of me, and now SHE knows. After she and Wayne make up though...ugh, I'm just going to tell her I don't like him, and just keep it to myself for a while, because I don't want to affect them. He has a really low self esteem, and was talking about how if he talked about his problems before blowing up (that was the cause of the fight) no one would give a crap. I had realized by that point that I liked him, so I was trying to find a way to say he could talk to me without sounding really corny and stupid, and I ended up saying something along the lines of "Well, if you need to, I'm always there" then put "ahh, that sounded corny! Well, I have to go now, bye!" And hurried and left. And today I was all depressed, thinking of him being depressed...and it wasn't even my fault he was depressed! It was Lily's fault! He loves LILY, not me! UGH! It's like knowing he's depressed makes me want to do anything to make him feel better and have him be happy...stupid boys...I'm sorry, this is making no sense right now, but I just want to rant. It's just I'm so confused right now and I want to get all this out...I'm just so confused.
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Apr 1, 2003 18:11:13 GMT -5
sorry I can't respond to your posts, but I did read them! **And BTW, my sister Sarah and her hubby Pete had their first baby at 1:06 am this morning! A little girl named Abigale Maree ** Anyhoo, back to school today. It was a CSAP testing day, so I didn't have the reg. schedule. we came in, did testing, had a one hour activity break, in which me and a cpl of friends went to the band room and watched cartoons and talked. There was a hottie in there that was across the room and I think he was staring at me. lol ANYHOO, then we had another hour of testing, then we had another break for an hour. Then me, Kaylee, Stu, his girlfriend (yes yes, sad I know...but they didn't look too serious) and a cpl other ppl went outside. One had a waterbottle with holes in the lib, so we were having a semi-water fight. Then we were just kinda hangin out. I accedentally hit him in the chest, and he lifted up his shirt to reveal A) a reaaaly nice stomach and B) lots of scratches. I think he had gotten into a surfing accedent over spring break or something. I felt so sorry for him So then we innocently flirted a little, and then we had to go back inside. So we all went back in to watch cartoons, and like everyone had their legs on Stu's. So then we were kinda flirting abit more and stuff, then low and behold, the hott guy from the first activity break comes in. He was sitting behind me but one seat over with his friends, and since I was on the end, I was leaning over to be in the conversation we were having. So I glance over, and he's staring at me. Then after that's over, we go to lunch. Me and Kaylee were sitting at a different table thatn Stu and his gf, so I look up, and I see Stu looking at me and motioning for me to come over. Then when I pointed it out to Kaylee and he motioned for her too. So we went over there for a minute, and then leave. Anyhoo, the ppl are back at the table now, and this one dude sits across from me. A little while later he goes 'So your new? What's your name' So then I tell him Chris and we shook hands and he said 'really...I'm Chris too!' lol So then after me and Kaylee were doen eating, we went over to sit at Stu's table. K sits down then I si down in between her and Stu. So we're talking then his gf comes back, and I have to scooch down for her. So then I'm still sitting by stu, and he was talking and stuff...he said that someone had called him gay and he looked really pissed, so I kinda gave him a side hug and he didn't shrug me off or anything. So a little later, we're outside again and someone had hit him in his scratched stomach, and so he was like holding it kinda bent over-like, and everyone's like 'awww!' and giving him hugs and stuff. I did too, btw. Then later the guy who called him gay somes up to him and goes 'hey dude...I was just kidding about the gay thing' then help out his hand. After like 10 seconds, Stu goes to shake his hand then the guy pulled his hand away and said something to the effect of 'I don't shake hands with fags'. Then Stu is getting reeally pissed off and like making fists and starting to bring them up and stuff, and I kinda looked at him like 'Calm down...' but I duno if he saw me. Then the guy said he was joking and held his hand out again. Stu was still really pissed (oh man he looks sooo hott when he's all manly and pissed off...his eyes get reeally pretty...lol) and was like, glaring at the guy, then after like a minute or so, he finally shook his hand. Then we went back in and did more tests then it was the end of the day. I saw him when we were leaving, and we kinda stopped (we being me, K, Stu and his gf*I think...*) and talked for like a minute. then we all split up. And that brings us to now. lol
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Post by Steph99 on Apr 2, 2003 19:20:31 GMT -5
Chris - OOOHHH! You're an AUNT! Neato! Say "Congrats" for me to ur sister. and Good Lucks. As for me, why didn't I wake up and smell the coffee a whole lot sooner? I mean, I always thought he was single, always thought there was hope. Until Tues... then Becca told me he was dating a girl from Camden. Oh well... good luck everyone and God Bless!
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Apr 2, 2003 22:52:33 GMT -5
^^ I will they went home from the hospital today. Well Stu was VERY flirty today. He sat across from me at lunch and we were discussing names. I told him my last name, and he goes 'haha it sounds like nazi!!' (it does kinda..I was laughing w/ him) and so then he told me his last name. It's so scool! Although I can't remember it It's Italian though. Oh and I found out he was in Hawaii, not Cali. And he Surfs, skateboards AND snowboards. HELLO!! I gotta convince him to teach me how When he came into history class, he acted all shocked, and was like 'oh no, you're in this class!?' lol and I was like 'yup...I was my first day too!'. Then Luthman told everyone that it was free seating, and I was sitting in the spot I was in last time I was there. So Stu goes 'yes! free seating? Where do I wanna go...' and looks around. Then my friend Caity comes in, and puts her binder on the desk next to me where she also sat last time, and then Stu comes over and puts his binder on the desk. He said something to the effect of 'no!' and so Caity goes 'ok well I guess that means I can't sit here?' (she knws I like him) and he goes 'no.' So then she leaves and he sits down (keep in mind all his friends are on the other side of the room). We're studying the Oregon Trail, and so we were doing this wagon train thing. When Luthman said 'and I guess you all are sitting next to who you want in your wagon train', we just kinda glanced at eachother. So then we're doing out wagon train stuff w/ Karen, and we start talking about random stuff. Then he said 'What's your last name again?' and so I wrote it down and gave it to him to see if he could pronounce it. He did it perfectly, and so I asked him what his last name was again and he told me. Then, out of the blue, he goes 'But I'm not giving you my phone number' kinda playfully, and i said 'well I wasn't gonna ask for it!' the he goes ' well you prolly would have gotten it from Kaylen'. He's so funny. I lurve him. lol I miss him! And we have CSAPs tomorrow so I don't get to see him in class. Only at lunch I'm gonna tell Kaylen I like him tomorrow though. *sigh* Do you think he liked me?
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Apr 4, 2003 22:35:15 GMT -5
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Apr 5, 2003 0:32:23 GMT -5
Oh Nichole...I'm so sorry But at least he likes you as a friend! I know that sounds kinda...dumb, I guess, but it's true. At least you told him! Wow I don't post for 2 days and Nichole is the only one that posts? wow...lol Anyhoo nothing new here. Stu gave Amanda a pretty silver ring that has dolphins on it for Valentines day. *sigh* I don't really think they're gonna break up soon. Nothin too exciting on the flirting thing. He did manage to Swish when he had to save our wagon train an engery point in history. he had to make a basket from like a yard and a half away with a short basket and a small ball. He had really nice form. Then after school when there were only a cpl groups still hanging out, Kaylene dragged me back to our locker to get her glasses, and we saw Stu talking w/ some friends and stopped to say hi. He was wearing a blue beanie, and holding his skateboard all cool-ly. And DAAAANG did he look fine. Too bad I can't do anything abouit it. Nikki prolly knows this, but I tend to like the guys I like to know (if I know they're gonna be cool about it), but with him I can't let him know, cause then he'll tell Amanda (amanda and me are friends) and things will be really weird w/ our group. Amanda will prolly get pissed at me, and if I make any advancements (in the words of Lauren and Kaylene), she'll 'gouge my eyes out and make me eat them'. lol But there is this cute guy who always sits at our lunch table, who's always just kinda there, but doesn't really talk to anybody, yet listens in to all of our conversations (not to mention, he more often then not sits next to me). I've always wanted to talk to him, cause he never really talks to anyone, and I think Monday. Just like turn to him in the lul of the convo and say something to the effect of 'Hi..howsit goin' in like a playful voice. Cheesy, I know. I'm welcoming suggestions
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Apr 5, 2003 1:12:48 GMT -5
ATTENTION...EVERYONE...IT IS NATIONAL HUG NICHOLE DAY! *HUGS!* Awww hunny...atleast you're really good friends...right? Ya never know, maybe after being really good freinds for a lil while more he'll see how awesome you are! Chris...hey..like I said...go for Fred...Frick..Frack...Umm oh yes...Frank...lol sorry...mentally had to catch up on what I decided to call him. Anywhoooo...sorry about Stu *hugs* "Hoopster: Nikki....tony just asked me out.." "SideKick17: why didnt you tell me you liked anne? SideKick17: i dont care that you do...it just wouldnt hurt as much as if you told me..and i didnt have to hear it from her... SideKick17: and i dont even know why it should hurt...but i guess i'm/was still attatched...even though I know it wont work...i feel even stupider... Triplefang111: i dont Triplefang111: like anne SideKick17: then why did you ask her out? Triplefang111: i was messing ith her head Triplefang111: and my friend thinks its funny SideKick17: well dont mess w/her head cuz you messed w/mine Triplefang111: sorry i am so sorry plaease forgive me Triplefang111: no but im sorry SideKick17: its ok...i just felt extremely stupid and now i feel stupider after saying all that and haveing a runny nose and a puddle of tears...so dont mess w/her head please SideKick17: *smiles and kicks you in shins*" Waaaaaa...it was aweful!!!! I flipped....(you can ask Christina) Anywhoo...and today I lost the note he gave me..the really sweet one and I tore up my room lookin for it and cried and then found it underneith my dresser...and it was all good..and I came home from the batting cages and was all happy b/c i got to see kaela and i wooped this one guy in b-ball and found out that...oofta..it's been an emotional day!!! *does a lil dance* I HAVE TO PEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! Lol... sorry random thought...we have one freakin bathroom in this whole house..and my mom just took a long long shower and now my dad's in there! Gaaaaaaaaaa!!!! 'tis an interesting start to spring break, eh?
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Apr 5, 2003 20:15:32 GMT -5
Gab- Thanks...that makes me feel better about my decision. I'm just kinda gonna roll with the punches. And I know he'll make a great friend. And still talk to Frank or w/e his name is. lol And I saw my math teacher at Home Depot today Nothing new here until Monday
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Apr 5, 2003 23:05:19 GMT -5
*hugs everyone* Thank you sooooo much for being so great about this You all rock!! Sorry, I don't have any time to reply to any of your posts right now, but next time I get a second, I will, I promise!! Okay, well, I'm recovered enough to talk about it now....ugh, I just can't believe I actually believed what everyone was saying. K, well I was talking to Wayne about how a song reminded me of the guy I liked (him), and he wanted to know who. Of course I wasn't going to tell him, but then Lily (my best friend and Wayne's ex-girlfriend) got online (this was all on MSN messenger), and I was talking to her about how he was trying to get me to tell him who it was, and she laughed and everything. Then she said "you really need to tell him, because he told me something..." So I was thinking it was that he liked me, but I wasn't quite sure so I tried to talk her into telling me, but she wouldn't. Well, I told Lily to tell Wayne, and then she was like "Wayne says...." And I was going crazy because this had been going on for about a half an hour, and I wantd to know. Anyways, then she put "he Really really likes you, as a friend." Then I got all depressed and everything and neither me or Wayne could talk to each other, so I feel like I ruined our friendship or something *sighs* I blocked him on MSN messenger because I'm too shy to talk to him, and he might have blocked me too. Anyways, I sent him an e-mail telling him to forget about what happened, and I liked a lot of other guys better then him (heh heh...), so I didn't even know why I did that. It really has effected me....but I guess I'll have to live *sighs*
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Apr 6, 2003 0:38:01 GMT -5
Gabi-I already talked ta ya... You're in my prayers Nichole-I'm sorry hun *Hugs* But he said he really really likes you as a freind...therefore, talk to him...be his friend. Dont let the great freindship that you two could have slip away. *Nudges you towards Wayne* Good luck babe. Triplefang111: whats on your mind tonight SideKick17: dont wanna say lol SideKick17: yours? Triplefang111: that doesn't work, ya gotta tell me whats on your mind...its like some unknown rule(that i made up) SideKick17: lol...cuz whenever I tell you first you always sign off or dont answer and then its never fair! Triplefang111: well...trust me.. SideKick17: last time I trusted you, you made me wait a week and a half just to find out something I already knew! Triplefang111: well! that was last time..this is NOW time Triplefang111: com'n...please..... SideKick17: lol SideKick17: you Triplefang111: k..heres how it should work..u go 1st than i go IMMEDIATLY after..promise SideKick17: i already told you Triplefang111: huh SideKick17: SideKick17: you Triplefang111: ohhhh i thought u said me go 2st Triplefang111: *1st SideKick17: hehe no SideKick17: your turn Triplefang111: .....*~...<you>....~*.... Triplefang111: that was a cool way to put it Then Later... SideKick17: do you have a baseball game/practice on the 3rd of may? Triplefang111: i'm not surr Triplefang111: *sure Triplefang111: i can find out tomrrow SideKick17: okies...check cuz theres a track meet at Lake Stevens.. and if you dont have anything you should come Triplefang111: if i can..we'll see SideKick17: okies.... SideKick17: *sigh* Triplefang111: whats the matter SideKick17: i just miss ya Triplefang111: i'll see ya sometime soon Triplefang111: hopefully SideKick17: ya...:-\ *sigh* I miss him so much....I shouldnt be putting myself in those situations though...I shouldnt have said "you"....oofta...but I guess that would be lieing, eh? *sigh*...I need a car.
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Post by averagegurl on Apr 7, 2003 11:06:00 GMT -5
heya chikas... long time since i last post. Well this is actually a kind of "goodbye" note to u guys. I mean i'll still visit and stuff and i'll still follow ur love life. But I'm still trying to let go, even though i know taht i've said it many times before that i'm nearly there. The truth is.. im not. Just the other day, i felt like someone was staring at me and all i see was noah looking at me at the same time as i look at him, and there was just this uncomfotable feelings. So i'm kinda leaving UGOCG.... although im proud to say taht im still a member ( u cant get rid of me that easily!). I want to thank you girls for supporting me through some of the most difficult times in my life. You dont know how grateful i am that i cud just log on to a computer and go to this site and pour my heart out without feeling as if im being judjed (sp?). You girls have been wonderful to me and all your posts have made me cry and smile. I congratulate those who have a wonderful guy in their arms and i congratulate those who have made amazing effort on pursuing their "fish". You girls are truly beautiful, amazing, sweet, and wonderful in your own true way. As much as i luv it here i have to leave becuz i'm gonna start fresh. I'm going to try to forget noah and move on. I'll be back when i have a new guy in mind ( it'll be soon.. i hope so !). Thanx for making me feel comfortable and at home! Feel free to PM! I love to hear from u! Well see ya chikas! Proud Member of UGOCG, ~ Bo ~
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