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Post by SparkleSweetie on Mar 15, 2002 0:07:30 GMT -5
Sometimes I cut myself when I have a really bad day and I'm really stressed out. I know its not right but its so tempting.
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Post by x n0ise on Mar 19, 2002 16:53:56 GMT -5
I don't know why, but some times...maybe a few times a week...I feel like cutting myself. I'm too stressed, maybe. My friends are always fighting, and they drag me into it. I have so much homework...I have basketball to practice, I'm part of our school play, my parents are always nagging me or something...argh. But the thing is, I have a wonderful boyfriend. And then when I'm with him, I don't want to hurt myself. But right when I get home I have the urge. I don't want him to find out, he might think I'm psycho. argh.
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Post by diamond.in.the.rough on Apr 6, 2002 20:23:12 GMT -5
My best friend the other night was burning herself with a lighter. She showed it to me today and she was disappointed that it 'didn't turn out better'. She told me that it felt better then sex and that just scares the crap out of me. I really hope that she doesn't do it again.
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Post by brown_eyed_rudie on Apr 13, 2002 17:54:08 GMT -5
oracle ^ that would scare me too. here's a big hug for you, your friend, and anyone who needs one! [glow=pink,2,300]*hug*[/glow] I feel like a freak. i don't cut, but when i'm really stressed out or angry, i bite my arm/wrist to sort of catch myself from going off the edge. it's bad cause theres always these wierd marks on my arms. i'm really ashamed of it and i feel so strange. it scares my mom, cause once without meaning to i did it in front of her. it doesn't really make me feel anybetter either, just gets me under control. i don't know....
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Post by Ich Liebe Rammstein on Apr 16, 2002 18:21:33 GMT -5
^^^^^^ You feel like a freak?? Im one....hm Im glad I dont get *that* made easily......
ok Im not sure,but if you need to delete this or whatever go ahead...But a few days ago,I tried cutting myself with a knife this time and now one of my friends is doing it and we both have these scars,I did it again last night and Im gonna do it again tonight..I know its wrong...but atleast I dont have a stupid reason to do it like my friend has....... (she does it to 'relieve stress" byw....I do it cuz......umm...Im depressed and blah......well Ill go .)
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Post by x n0ise on Apr 16, 2002 18:34:19 GMT -5
^^But her reason isn't stupid. I think that if someone says s/he does it to relieve stress...it's just a coverup or something. Maybe there's something really wrong..
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Post by Ich Liebe Rammstein on Apr 16, 2002 20:19:49 GMT -5
^^^^^^ I dont think so,when I started doing it,she kept saying it was stupid and retarded now she does it and says she relieves stress and that she says thats the right way to feel pain,(the wrong way would be to get hurt by a guy--but thats all her) but whatever...I dont know...
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Post by Boo-Boo_Harris on Apr 16, 2002 21:46:03 GMT -5
I'm the one that Oracle is talking about. Yeah, I burned myself with a lighter, and I really enjoyed it. Not only because I was getting attenton from the people around me when I was doing it but because I could control what was happening to me.I seriously thought it was fantastic. I didn't necessarily feel pain, but a tingling sensation that went up my arm. I was in control of what was happening to me. I wasn't doing it because of stress or anything like that. I was doing it because I could get my mind to tell my body to feel no pain. I was euphoiric. Personally, I was doing it for the mental control of it all, although I can understand why people would be worried about me. When I was in the 8th grade, I wanted to commit suicide. All the time when I was with my friends I would get massivly depressed and try to slit my wrists. I think now that I was doing that for the attention, not really for the purpose of killing myself. Not many people that I know now know about that year. I don't think of what I did as self mutilation, which is what a lot of people called it. The people who never experiance what I did will never know what I'm talking about.
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Post by Ich Liebe Rammstein on Apr 18, 2002 19:48:20 GMT -5
^^^^^^ Juz dont hurt herself..AnYwAy,well..Ive tried to kill myself twice in my life (once like in 4th or 5th grade,and another time this year,)I thought about doing it last night cuz I was pissed but I was like incontrollably crying so I f fell asleep.....But Ok,I know this was the right thing to do,ok,first of all Tuesday night,I cut myself REALLY badly and all tthese ppl (even though alot of them already knew I did it) Keep making jokes about it,and like saying stuff like "Why dont you go cut yourself" well AnYwAy,I regretted doing it yesterday (Wed.) that I wrote a note/letter thing to the guidance counselourand she made an 'appointment' to see me tomarrow...but Im SOO scared,cuz my parents dont have any idea that I do it,cuz I deny it and stuff and I keep crying cuz Im soo scared......But do yall still think I did the right thing??
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Post by diamond.in.the.rough on Apr 18, 2002 19:49:53 GMT -5
thanks for the hug brown_eyed_rudie.
Yeah Boo-Boo I've never experienced it but it still scares the hell out of me that you would do that to yourself. I love you and I don't want you to get hurt.
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Post by 80s Child on Apr 18, 2002 20:25:04 GMT -5
Some of these posts are starting to get triggering. Please watch what you say as much as possible - some people are easily triggered. This is not a warning, but rather a friendly reminder.
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Post by Ich Liebe Rammstein on Apr 18, 2002 21:18:26 GMT -5
^^^^^^ What the heck does that mean?? I never saw anything 'triggering'.....
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Post by Ich Liebe Rammstein on Apr 18, 2002 21:22:05 GMT -5
<<<<Also, do NOT use numbers; they create competition. Use variables like "X". Thank you very much.>>>>
Whats that mean?? 11111111111111111xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...
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Post by pettyluv on Apr 18, 2002 22:07:38 GMT -5
^I think she means for you to say that you did"such and such, X number of times" so people do not get in a competition over who cuts themselves more.
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Post by 80s Child on Apr 19, 2002 19:07:10 GMT -5
Linkinpark_girl, I wasn't specifically addressing you. There are others in here who have made triggering posts. And pettyluv is correct in what she said. Please do not attack me here. I'm only trying to keep this forum safe for all who come here.
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