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Post by thevoicewithin on Aug 4, 2002 12:30:18 GMT -5
What i hate about school is I am not into the whole social scene crap. i cant be myself at school without someone saying something. so i act like everybody else and it pisses me off that i have to hide who i am. any help?
As for anger I just scream bad things and cuss. not very good i know, but what else to get it out? i cant throw things i would get into worse trouble. but usually when i have screamed until i just start to cry, i go in my room and play linkin park or some rock music really loud to zone out everything else.
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Post by RebDoMINe on Aug 4, 2002 18:35:08 GMT -5
With your school--I can see how you're unhappy there. High school might be seen as some wonderful environment for most people, but for those left out of the social scene, it can be a living hell. And I'm sick of hearing everyone say that kids are cruel, because times HAVE changed, and things have progressed to make life much, much worse for students.
I don't really have many friends. And I've finally come to terms with that. I know that if I go out and act like everyone else, I can make some "friends." But I don't want that. I don't want friendship based on lies.
I've come to be proud of the fact that I can like myself and be who I am, even if other people don't like it. I jokingly admit all the time that no one loves me more than me, and just about everyone hates me. It's hard to go day after day without being accepted, especially when you're being picked on.
But it's harder to try to be someone you're not. It's not worth it to me. Everyone is different--maybe it is to you. But for me, I've never been happier with myself. I've come to realize that anyone who can't treat me with respect because I'm not like them does not deserve my time.
I'll be the first to admit that I am not a likeable person. I don't trust people, I'm quick to anger, and I'm pretty mean to anyone who approaches me.
This situation of yours seems to go deeper than a dislike for you school environment. You have to decide whether you want to like yourself or be liked. Because that's what it's going to come to. In the end, you're the only person you can rely on. Friends will always come and go, no matter how close you think you are. No one will ever know you like you do. No matter how much you tell someone things about you, you'll never be able to tell them everything--every feeling, every reaction, every situation...the mystery makes friendships fun, but getting to know yourself and being happy with who you are, regardless of how others feel, is what makes life worth living.
But that's just my look on things.
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Post by Ich Liebe Rammstein on Aug 4, 2002 18:43:29 GMT -5
I don't get what your saying about the school thing..But I just say to ignore them. If it's just really irrating.....then....no can't say anymore...nevermind!! ;D
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Post by thevoicewithin on Aug 5, 2002 8:29:08 GMT -5
What I've realized is that my self-esteem at school is really bad. I never have gotten picked on much, but that doesn't mean that it hasn't happened, it just means that it doesn't happen much. I am very happy and energetic when I'm out of school and my self-esteem is great, but when I get in school, I cry a lot, telling my parents I don't want to go to school. My self-esteem goes down, and I admit, I care what others think of me. But this year I am going to try to make things different, I am going to be the real me, hold my head up, and walk around with confidence. Also I have a good amount of friends, but not to many that I can trust to stick by me through thick and thin. I have maybe 3 or 4 like that I can trust. But my friend Alan, raises my self-esteem and he makes me feel special. That is why I love him! ;D
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Post by LisaRocksYourWorld, yo on Aug 9, 2002 21:17:04 GMT -5
What I actually like about high school/middle school, well, pretty much the whole teenage time, is that there is a group for everyone. And even though some kids can be cruel, there's usually a few people you can feel comfortable around.
Of course not everyone will stick by you through thick and thin. All you can ask for is one or two people, and if you have that, you're mighty lucky. No one is completely trustworthy, and NO ONE will be there for you all the time, but a friend is someone who spills a minimal amount of your secrets and only ditches you a few times. Sad, but completely true.
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Post by thevoicewithin on Aug 10, 2002 9:05:11 GMT -5
The 2 days I've been in school so far arent too bad. I have lunch with my best friend. And other classes are kinda cool.
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Aug 12, 2002 22:20:22 GMT -5
That's good. I'm glad that you have lunch with your friend and you like your classes. But I say to just try and be yourself. Who cares if someone doesn't like you? I have done the whole 'changing who I am to please other people' thing and it totally sucked. So now my little motto thing is 'I am who I am and if you don't like it, that's your problem'. It's worked with me so far
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Post by thevoicewithin on Aug 13, 2002 18:46:01 GMT -5
i am wondering... in my lang arts class we have to do a project on a book we read and i really wanted to do it on the bio i was reading of elvis, but there in a really obnoxious guy in that class and i have a strong feeling that he would say somethin mean bout it to me. so i dont like gettin made fun of, so should i do what i feel like doin and risk getting made fun of, or just do a simple project and not get made fun of?
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Post by x n0ise on Aug 15, 2002 11:22:37 GMT -5
I would do your Elvis project. I mean, why not? Elvis was a very interesting (and cute! In his younger days....) person. I would......who cares about what that moron says. He's just trying to be a jerk.
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Post by 1.gurl.revolution on Aug 16, 2002 10:10:23 GMT -5
^^lol.^^ yea...just do it on elvis. it's what you[/i][/b] want to do...not the obnoxious boy wants. if he makes fun of you, that just shows you how much of a life he really has. and remember that this is "elvis month". people might actually apprichiate it more. and plus, who knows what book that guy choose. the report shouldn't please other people, it should please you and make your life a whole lot easier![/color]
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Post by -*- Little Miss Strawberry -*- on Aug 24, 2002 10:28:21 GMT -5
I have a problem with temper too, and the only way I've tried to stop it is by thinking deliberately "don't lose it". That is actually the only way I can manage it. And I pray for God to help me. But I don't know if you're religious.
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Post by thevoicewithin on Aug 24, 2002 10:40:55 GMT -5
I am religious, I'm christian. I never have asked God to help me with my temper. I am going to though next time I get angry.
I need help with another problem guys!
Tonight me and Krissy are going to the mall and see Blue Crush. But I want to bring Alan too. (I'm not goin out with him, I just have the biggest crush on him ever, we are good friends). So should I tell Krissy to bring Jarrett (her B/F) and I bring Alan? He might think it would be a double date, which it would kinda be. Help!
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Post by thevoicewithin on Nov 23, 2002 13:24:03 GMT -5
i have been goin through a lot of shit the past few monthes. i almost quit school and sent my parents to jail (because if you quit before you are 16 then your parents go to jail, i'm 14)
i cry all the time, i'm up and down, happy one moment sad the next. i feel inadequate, fake, and bitchy. right now i just am sick. bad sunburn, horribly sore legs and feet (i had a 10 mile walk-a-thon at school yesterday), cloudy head.
the love of my life dumped me and stopped calling me alltogether.
i just am complaining right now and wanted to get a few things off my chest but it seems that a lot of my feelings can't be put in to words.
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Post by Audrey on Nov 24, 2002 16:17:43 GMT -5
weee! how fun!
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Post by thevoicewithin on Dec 4, 2002 16:54:00 GMT -5
no need to get sarcastic audrey.
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