She Writes Her Soul...

[Steph99]

Down Below

Near and never far
Is your soul and who you are
You've lost touch with it
You can't sleep without
All you ever focus or think on
Is asking you if you know who you are
Like the surrounding people do
Don't think about them or what they say
Don't leave or lose focus
You damned thing, say something!

You've got me so confused
And now I'm just not sure
If I'll ever be the same as what I was before
Because right now I'm accepted
And now I'm just really afraid!
Because if I leave and start all over
I might not like my new life
And I'll wanna run back to you and
I don't want to do that either
I don't think I could ever leave
I'm in love with you, yes. I'm sure.
So how am I supposed to get on with my life?
What the hell am I going through?
Damn.

[Steph99]

Here's changing my mind

I hate you
...Sometimes
You can't even
Give me a glance
But then you do
And I think you care
Then you dont
Thinkin' your not there
Make up your mind
I hope your fine
Hello.

Words From Me To You

I wanna tell you I love you
Because truth be told, I do
I wanna hear those words echo back to me
From your mouth and I wanna
Hear your smooth voice not a clone
Or someone else but...
Sometimes I hate you so bad
Because I'm frusterated,
Because I am too much of a coward to tell you
Because you are idiotic enough not to see through me

[Steph99]

The Hurt, My Friend.

I feel the hurt
I feel the pain
I feel the things
My head hurts
My stomach hurts
My everything hurts
But mostly...
... my heart hurts
Because you hurt me everyday!
And you never even realize that by not saying
Something to me, my heart crumbles
And when you look away
My heart crumbles
..And when I get courage that swells
I just mumble
I've got this thing inside of me
A hunger... a craving...
I must have it. I must get it now, or
I'll never escape this trap my own heart has set me
And I'm caught and this is in between
Lies, Cheats, and best friends and dances with you
And maybe...?

[Steph99]

The Train
My life is on a train
On an old creaky set of tracks
I only paid half for it
So the train leads me ; I don't lead it
I have no control
Of where it's taking me 10 minutes from now
Or years from now
Or how about if my train collides...
on these old creaky set of tracks?
But I guess it wouldn't be too bad
If I collided with you
Then we could mend our wounds together
And strike up a conversation...
...So maybe I've misunderstood
The way these old tracks are leading the train
Maybe they'll end someday
And switch around to the other set of tracks
And you will be @ the end of it
Waiting on me.

[Steph99]

Life is smooth
Like the clear likes
The cold water
That makes me shiver
That makes me shout
That wakes me up
That puts me down
Life is like the ocean
So salty when you get a taste
But sweet on days when
You've got a friend to sit by the ocean with you
Life is like a good mystery book
That keeps you guessing
And you turn up always wrong in the end
But you don't stop guessing!
Many of humans have philosophy
On what life is made of, is, should be
But I've got all I need right here
Except my heart is missing a part
A part that helps it to funtion
The part is missing you right now
Cory, look through my soul. Listen.

[Steph99]

Oh Jesus Christ is my savior
And so he always will be
He's who my life is dedicated to
'Cause he's the one who died for me
My friends never gave their life for me
But Jesus died for my sins
God gave Jesus to all us
And I pray that you yourself will end
Soon with the right path
The pathway to Heaven
The path I'm choosing
I'll never be losing
I'm on my way to Heaven!
Thank you, Jesus, my Saviour
THE SAVIOR
Thank you Lord...
I thank you for everything
I love you forever more
Amen.

You are my rock
My diary, my secret
The one I can confide in
Or at least I thought I could
Until you turned your back away
To let someone else in
And a cool breath of air
I thought I was just breathing
It was envy running down my spine
... I don't want to share you.
I want you all to myself.
Every piece of you. I want to
Console and conserve you
Keep you and make you last
I don't want to share you...
... no. not with anyone else.

Dear whoever cares @ all
Whoever gives a damn
My name does not matter but still:
I'm confused with alot of things.
Like if I'll ever get to college.
Who my true friends are.
If so and so feels about me;
The way I feel about him
Oh, whoevers out there
Whoever gives a damn
Listen to me cry over a ditzy little petty things
I think that I'm in love..
But it just be a damn straight crush
But there are feelings there for him
I've never felt before
Cause all I wanna see is him happy
And if that means me leaving ; so be it
If he really feels the way I do ;
Then why is he trying to hide it like me?
He's much more brave and smart than me
I am just a coward for holding my feelings inside
One day I might just burst
I wanna see you everyday
I know I'm too young to make decisions like these
But, it's not a decision. I have no control over how I feel.
And I'm in love and thats a feeling only felt by me over him.
I need him to comfort me when I'm struggling
I need him to tell me that he cares
But when he walks straight pass me
I feel as no one cares ; and I need somebody there.
Sorry for ranting, who ever you are, I just have to let it out
I can't hold my feelings any longer
Thank you for not interrupting ; and please don't respond
But when I turned around to face you, you were already gone.

[Steph99]

Cheap Wine

It didn't matter the cost
All I know is when it tainted my tongue
It was so bittersweet
I know that dusty glass wasn't china
But the taste was confusing
The taste of love ; bittersweet
It needed no sugar or alchol
It was already old and aged
But when it hit my tongue
It hit my heart ; crashing, crashing
Bittersweet; like me and you

Any comments appreciated.

[LisaRocksYourWorld, yo]

Wow, you're really a nice addition to the poetry board. I can relate to a lot of your work, and it's nicely written. It's obvious that you've had some unfortunately inspiration for some of this... but sometimes heartache makes for the best poetry.

[Steph99]

Thanks so much. Yeah, your right. Sometimes heartache or pain gets my juices flowing for when I'm writing.

Thanks for your comments, Lisa! God Bless!