Spazmatikal's Poetry, yo.

[Spazmatikal]

i don't share my poetry with many. feel blessed. some of them seem unfinished, but that's just the way it goes.



come now sweet child
into the arms of sleep
blissful unconsciousness
a world without pain
composed only of thoughts
where nothing can hurt


***


losing my grip on life
choking on my short comings
strangled by my consciousness
raped by my thoughts
quietly screaming
lasing out in pain
bleeding salty tears
tasting the trails
loathing their sources

***

a black cloud of hate
enters the sky of my mind
the cumulus bursts
and tears of depression rain
overwhelmed by sorrow
i drown in my pain

***

what do you do when
the only one that picks you up
is the one that's holding you down?
when the hand you hold
is the hand that's holding you under water
letting you drown and wallow in your filth.
how can you survive
when the whole world is against you?
it's so hard to find a friend
in this bleak world of loneliness and pain.

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

Those were great. Keep 'em coming!!

[*Little Leprechaun Gurl*]

^^^ I love your poems! They're so good! I wish I had your talent! Anywhoo keep it up!

[Spazmatikal]

There's a horrible multiplying plague
The call it "the human race"
It rapes the land of its fruits
Destroys what once was good and pure
It grows and feeds until innocence is lost
one living cell against another
just like parasites
engulf eachother
it's a dog eat dog world
and this plague is dying out.


wrote that one today. it seems unfinished. maybe i'll be inspired later.

[HairsprayQueen]

^^^^^^
I loved that last one!!!

[Spazmatikal]

none of my poems are long. or happy.



i'm swimming in apathy
but it doesn't keep me from drowning
in emotion...
"i don't care"
(sure i do)
"oh well"
(i want to die)
"it doesn't matter"
(i won't sleep tonight)
"i'm fine"
(yeah right)

[funkygirlk16]

Good One. ;D

[Spazmatikal]

i don't know where this one came from, but i flowed feverishly from my fingertips and made my entire body shake.



tears flow from my eyes
as blood often does from a fatal wound
a shot to my soul
piercing the fragile pinkness of my heart
i sit here crying
dying something anew
i do not know this pain
this irrecognizable hurt
as i sit here violently shaking
my hands trembling
as i reach my arms around my chest
hugging my knees closer to my body
with heaving breaths
and wounded moans
i struggle to steady myself
against the fatal blow to my being
what makes me shake so?
why does my heart bleed
and my soul wither?
hold me
i'm drowning in my own mind
my feeble attempts to steady myself cease
and i collapse to the floor
a nameless mass
void of my former being

[Spazmatikal]

6/16/02

Death smells sweet when it
Eats away at my flesh
Putting its black shroud
Round my bare sickly shoulders
Easing me from this life's sorrow
Saving me from this life's pain
Stopping tomorrow's waiting torment
I step away from my earthly body
Onto something better, i think
Nothingness

[canola4life]

that's my girlfriend... the chipper sort

[Ich Liebe Rammstein]

wow, tiffany. I loved that last one!! it was great!!

[Audrey]

Good poetry. My favorites were the depression, that third one in your first post, and the one in your third post.

[Spazmatikal]

wrote this last night, i dunno what the hell was wrong with me, but i was on the verge of tears all day. *shrugs* i'm feeling better today though.

i'm lonely
(but i'm not alone)
i'm tired
(but my eyes are open)
i'm crying
(but there are no tears)
i'm hurting
(but there is no blood)
i'm talking
(but no one hears me)
i'm smiling
(but inside i'm broken)
i'm reaching out
(but i don't feel your hand)

am i drowning or waving?

[Spazmatikal]

4/27/03
you know?
sometimes i just want to give up.
go.
stop.
run.
i want it all to go away
i want to close up
inside myself
i want to be...
safe
warm
and loved.
away from here
happy and secure
but...
that's not the way it is
i'm here
and it sucks.