Post by Spazmatikal on Oct 7, 2002 14:57:13 GMT -5
does anyone here have an alcoholic parent?
my dad drinks. i hate it. i hate it with a fierce loathing passion from the bottom of my very being. it's not even that he's physically abusive when he's drunk. it's the fact that he's been drinking, that he becomes this harassive asshole. he becomes this monster. he's such a likeable guy when he's sober... but when he's drunk, i can't stand him. if he's working, he's a weekend drinker. if he's not working, it's pretty much every day. it's made a huge rift between my mom and my dad.
i've tried talking to him about it. we all have. he's in denial that he has a problem. if we try to bring it up, he gets extremely defensive and angry. it usually ends with me walking away in tears, feeling more defeated than ever. i hate it.
and it's unfair. seeing the effects of alcohol on my dad have bred in me this horrible anti-alcohol attitude. i will never drink. i will never get drunk. and i will never stand for being with someone who will drink. it's a known thing, i definitely don't keep it a secret. it's made it so that i won't ever be able to even socially drink.
my dad isn't the only one who drinks in my family. two of my three brothers do. one gets intensely obnoxious when he's drunk. the day after christmas last year, drunk off his ass, he threatened to stand in the middle of the freeway and kill himself. then he disappeared, and it was three hours of searching for my brother in fear that we'd find him dead. my other brother who drinks gets extremely belligerent and it's just unnecessary.
i hate alcohol.
my dad drinks. i hate it. i hate it with a fierce loathing passion from the bottom of my very being. it's not even that he's physically abusive when he's drunk. it's the fact that he's been drinking, that he becomes this harassive asshole. he becomes this monster. he's such a likeable guy when he's sober... but when he's drunk, i can't stand him. if he's working, he's a weekend drinker. if he's not working, it's pretty much every day. it's made a huge rift between my mom and my dad.
i've tried talking to him about it. we all have. he's in denial that he has a problem. if we try to bring it up, he gets extremely defensive and angry. it usually ends with me walking away in tears, feeling more defeated than ever. i hate it.
and it's unfair. seeing the effects of alcohol on my dad have bred in me this horrible anti-alcohol attitude. i will never drink. i will never get drunk. and i will never stand for being with someone who will drink. it's a known thing, i definitely don't keep it a secret. it's made it so that i won't ever be able to even socially drink.
my dad isn't the only one who drinks in my family. two of my three brothers do. one gets intensely obnoxious when he's drunk. the day after christmas last year, drunk off his ass, he threatened to stand in the middle of the freeway and kill himself. then he disappeared, and it was three hours of searching for my brother in fear that we'd find him dead. my other brother who drinks gets extremely belligerent and it's just unnecessary.
i hate alcohol.
