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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 22, 2002 21:11:14 GMT -5
Hey guys... Gabi-I'm glad things have turned around and that you had such a great time w/Justin today...thankyou so much for the pm, gab..you're awesome  Nichole (WR) Thanx for the pm babe C-dont worry hun..we can be buddies together and watch the ones we're obsessed w/be with another girl... Oofta....Today was ok I guess, I'm gonna call Brett in a lil while. I'm gonna tell him how I feel...hopefully I wont explode...I dont want us to be in a fight...that would be way worse....*sigh* Blah...the whole thing is he's being incredibly sweet in asking her out too....Before every game the team members have secret partners and give eachother little encouraging gifts...He's gonna find out who her secret partner is and have the present be from him w/chocolates.  Oofta...I havent met her yet...but apparently she plays soccer and we play them next wednesday...watch..she's this perfect girl that everyone likes and likes Brett too. *sigh* I guess I'm doing better though...if its meant to be between them then its meant to be right?  Anywhoo, today was ok I guess...*sigh* Besides getting hit in the head with spit wads/earasers/ and wads of paper all through English b/c Raeders convinsed I hate him and him and Zach and James and Brandon thought it was funny how I jumped every time they hit me.  Blah then Bo kepted being extra-nice today...kinda weird. And I must admit I liked it...but I think its just b/c I wish it was Brett...so ya. But anywhoo, that was my day... |
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Oct 23, 2002 17:38:07 GMT -5
Okay, this is gonig to have to be short because I'm not supposed to be on right now Well. This is what happened YESTERDAY right after Calen got my note. He got it, and hours later, KISSED a freaking girl on the lips, but afterwords, said that he "might have a girlfriend", (namely, me,) so they would have to be "Friends With Benefits." Now to me, a "friend with benefits" is just as bad as having a GIRLFRIEND, and I'd rather not deal with someone who would cheat on their girlfriend, even if they weren't sure if it was a sure thing. So I'll just leave Calen on his way and let him be her boyfriend. I'm not stopping them *rolls eyes* I didn't before...I just can't believe I didn't eat anything ALL day because I was so nervous about what he might say to me. And I have PE tomorrow, so that should be fun tellingh im off....well, I problably won't tell him off, I'll just tell him to forget about the letter. I'm usually the kind of person who would yell at a guy and end up throwing something in his face, but yeah, that letter was one, HUGE mistake. What is it with me and bad luck with guys? |
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 23, 2002 21:05:09 GMT -5
Wilted- Thanks...And good for you for A) letting him have the note and B) Going to tell him off *sorta* more power to yas  Nik- Yay we can be buddies together! woo...lol Gab- Can you come up here on the way to Shrubby's and smack Houston upside the head too? *sniffle* Shrubby- hehe Yay for you that he got on the same team as you...and now I don't feel like such a dork for having the back of Houston's head memorized! lol Ok well today was...interesting. lol in 1st period *French* the guy that sits behind me who i kinda know starts kicking the back of my foot. So I kick back...then later he playes with my ponytail with his pencil...so then he goes back to the kicking this. So then during passing, we were in a fairly deserted hall, and he comes up behind me, and bounces my hair in his hand...lol so then he comes up next to me and was kinda grinning at meh. So I was like 'hey!' then messed up his hair then wiped he gel off onto him *lol*. So then in 2rd period *health* Landon was staring at me a little from across the room. Nothing interesting in 3rd period History boys wise, then in 4th period LanguageArts, Houston was teasing me cuz I got called up to the teacher's desk. Then came lunch...*sigh* he ditched us to site with her. There was one seat left, next to me, and I was all excited that he would sit next to me. So I see him walking over, and he pauses, looking at us and looking over to her. So he goes and sits with her. Didn't even look back. *sigh* But like halfway thru lunch, this guy who says 'Hey cutie' top me in the halls pokes me in the side and when i turn around, he smiled and waved. lol But Monica supposedly told Josh I liked him today at lunch, but I have no idea. And I didn't see Houston at all until 6th period. I walked out with Anders, who used to be my neighbor when we were like 4, so I had pix and he went with me to my locker to see them. 5th period math was ok. I forgot my homework, and I was passing notes w/ Natalie and I found out that Houston had asked Brianna. But this other guy in my class was making me laugh and tesing me for being a 'passer noter' lol. So during 6th period Science which I have w/ Houston, nothing happened. Well I has flirting with Brandon K. during our lab, which was lots of fun. lol He was tapping me on my shoulder then looking away, and leaning on me, and when i sat on a stool, he tried to push me off, etc. He's so cool tho. I love him Then I was saying something about how we might move to Colorado to Monica and Hannah, and Josh looked up and was like 'you're moving to Colorado?' and he had his glasses on and he looked so cute *squeal* lol But then after class, Houston was freaking out cuz he needed some paper and a pen and I was like 'I have a postit note' so he's like 'really?? Can I use it? and do you have a pencil? Of course you have a pencil...everyone has a pencil' and so i gave him a post it and a pencil and he wrote his s/n on the note and then says 'thanks' and rushes out with it. So we didn't walk outside together like we *always* do. blah...so I'm all depressed now. But Puddle of Mudd's 'She hates me' is on so I'm singing along and feeling a little better...but see I'm trying to like Brianna...I mean I hear she's really nice...one of my friend's best friends and lotsa ppl seem to like her. She was really nice to me when we met, but no matter how much I try, I cant help but dislike her. blah. I need to cal Monica and see what she says about everything. blarg this sucks elephant butts... |
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Post by LisaRocksYourWorld, yo on Oct 23, 2002 22:52:42 GMT -5
^^^Hey, best of luck if you move... It might suck, but there's plenty of Colorado cuties, too!
Hey girls! It sounds like stuff is going pretty good with all of you, and I can't disappoint either.
That great guy I met this year, Phil... He's so awesome, even though he has a girlfriend. He's still very touchy-feely and "friendly" (even though not totally in a way that his girlfriend gets jealous of), so I get attention. He always hugs me or kisses me on the forehead or something. Today, we were in gym class, and since all of our periods were cut short for an assembly, we didn't have time to dress and go outside, so we all just sat on the bleachers. Well, Phil was a bit... aroused. Okay, more than a bit, his soldier was standing completely at attention, if you catch my drift. Even though it was totally obvious (and believe me, he did not disappoint, hahahahaha), I seemed to be the only one who noticed. I was kind of embarassed for him because he had his hands jammed in his pockets trying to fix it and everything.
Well, S and I haven't really been talking for the past two months, if you remember. I still love him (yes, I used the L word, so sue me), but he has that new girlfriend who looks like me, etc, etc.
Him and his girlfriend don't look as happy together as they did a couple of weeks ago. I can't see it lasting much longer. She's a total flirt anyway. She kisses random guys in the hallway and everything... She looks totally cheap.
Well, today in Latin... S gave me this big friendly smile in the middle of class. It's wierd... I've been convincing myself its over, but was this his way of trying to make amends? We went from nothing, avoiding each other's glances, to a smile. Now, this time last year, if all I got from him was a smile, I would have been extremely depressed. But now it's this huge leap in the right direction for me. One little flash of his adorable, newly-straightened teeth, and my day became good, and I turned into a glowing puddle of joy for the next five minutes. I'm probably making something out of nothing. I could use your imput on what you think this means, girlies! So confusing.
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 24, 2002 21:33:29 GMT -5
Okies well today things were ok, I guess...i gotta be quick, but today at lunch, Houston sat with Brianna again...and when we were all done eating, he was sitting with his back toward me when me and Monica were hanging out w/ Josh, and I looked over, and he was sitting next to her her and had his arm around her *sniffle*. But I give them like a week at max...they never really talked before and have no classes together. But yeah after lunch i saw them holding hands in the hall...I was so upset I was soo close to asking if I could be excused to the bathroom in 5th period. *sigh* But I did flirt w/ Josh...so yeah...blah
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Oct 26, 2002 12:54:19 GMT -5
Eeep!! I met Wayne last night!!!! Ok, here's how it went ;D I was at the football game about an hour late because of many, many different things (forgetting my ID Card, my brother calling from Prision, Ect...), so I thought that Wayne would think that I had stood him up, but when we got there, I was walking around freaking out, then I thought I saw him, and me, being the stupid one i was, said something (I didn't think I was ready to meet him yet), but then we lost him, heh heh...THEN, one of my friends from another school said that the guy who I thought was him really WAS him, so two of my friends went off to go find him, and I was so nervous, I ran the opposite way (they made fun of me IN FRONT OF HIM about that later...). Anyway, I saw the three of them walking towards me, and figuring that I shouldn't make a bigger fool of myself, I walked towards them, and we spent the rest of the football game together! Wayne is REALLY cute! He's about 6 inches taller than me, with dirty blonde hair, big blue eyes, and he's just so so so CUTE *squeals* He is kind of quiet though, but he talked a lot more than I would have if I was surrounded by four guys I didn't know. Hee hee, a funny thing, though, is my friend who went after him likes him now too, which is just too bad. THAT BOY IS MINE  |
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Post by horsesalltheway on Oct 26, 2002 13:38:34 GMT -5
Lisa: It sounds like Phil likes you better then his girlfriend... HEHE his soldier was standing at full attention... lol Lisa you must be super hot Shrubbbby: What's your real name? You have to give it to us, it's not a choice. We need it to refer to you easier. So spill it, dammit. C: It sucks that you might have to move... but you'll make friends easy anywhere I'm sure! You're outgoing, pretty, sweet, etc... It won't be hard for you to find friends if you have to switch schools. Nichole: That's great everything went well with Wayne!! Do you guys have any plans to meet up again or anything?? Gabster: Seems like everything is going pretty well... but dammit everythings just staying the same type of thing hey?? *waits for something to happen * Luv, Nicole |
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 26, 2002 18:50:08 GMT -5
Nic: I know Shrubby's real name...muahaha I'm special! lol Gab: not much to say...but remember, NICOLE IS GONNA SMOTHER HIM IN CHEESE!!!mauahahahahaha!! Wilted: SCORE!!! lol and your the one w/ dibs on him too...he sounds like a real cutie Shrubby: Don't worry I won;t say anything abt your name... *shh dont tell anyone, but its *~*~*~*~*~* hehe* but even if we ever meet in real life, I'ma call you Shrubby. lol ok well I went to the HS homecoming game last nite *we lost 10-14* and like evryone from school was there *EVEN GIMPY!! lol nevermind* so obviously, Houston was there. He and Jon and Jon's big bro were in line w/ us for a while to get in, but they found someone else closer, so they left us. So later, I found Brandon K. and he was my bud-dy. lol I was like using his shoulder as a pillow. If you woulda looked at us, we woulda looked like a couple. Anyhoo, so Monica and Josh were all hanging all over eachother and stuff, and Joey and Dani were all over eachother, and Amy and her hottie bf were all over eachother and my bud-dy left me, so I felt so alone But so then I find Houston and Brianna. They were all hugging and being all bf/gf ish. It hurt. So bad. But I managed not to be all b*tchy and stuff to her and be nice to her and hang out with them for a while. So some guy came up and gave us all gum for supporting the Panthers *later he came up and introduced himslef* hehe. But yeah...so the rest of the night was pretty much me feeling like a loner but still having fun and being practically the only one there w/o someone to hang on. When Joey was being all flirty w/ Dani, he made her hand smack my butt...lol Oh man he did this body roll thing and lifted up his sweatshirt...ho lee shoot that was good...and he's cute too! lol But anyhoo, thruought the night, I was flirting w/ Houey. I didn't mean too, it's just automatic for me. I think that kinda pissed off Brianna. lol But yeah...so the night goes on, everyones hanging on everyone else, Gimpy *ok ok his real name is Jarod...lol* was sitting on the ground *he broke his leg playing football and was on crutches...that's why we call him Gimpy * so people can't really see him that well, so I was kinda protecting him. lol. But yeah. Anders doesn't trust me w/ his hair. lol He barely gave me a hug cuz he was scared I would touch his heair. lol But yeah. Night goes on, me feeling lonely, while josh and Monica are acting like they are going out, Houston and Brianna are hanging on eachother, I'm feeling lonely, yaddayaddayadda. I did see my old softball coach there tho. I gave him a hug. I love him, he's so cool. He's really tall and cute and all and he's just like a giant teddy bear. I like giving him hugs anyhoo, now off to mope around and be lonely...ttyl |
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Post by LisaRocksYourWorld, yo on Oct 26, 2002 20:26:48 GMT -5
Hey there. Gabster-- I'm glad you're getting over Steve and not still fawning over him. I wish I had half the confidence, strength, and courage you do. Of course, attracting other guys doesn't hurt the situation. Nichole-- Wow, talk about luck... I wish I could practically randomly meet a guy like that. Keep us updated if you see him again! Christina-- I kind of know how you feel. It sucks when everyone around you is a happy couple and no one seems to notice you, so you feel like the third wheel in every situation. Just hang in there, stay true to yourself, and someone will come your way, someone who won't have to subconciously rub their lover in your face! I got another semi-smile thing from S the other day. Although, I really think he's way too far gone to ever come back to me. He's been changing in so many ways. He doesn't even talk to his old friends a fraction as much as he used to. Everyone tells me him and his girlfriend aren't as close as before, as I said, but they were holding hands yesterday. Phil and I have a wierd relationship. We talk sometimes, and I get the occasional hug, but he seems way more flirtatious with my one friend. They're together a lot, and even though they're just friends and she doesn't even want a boyfriend, she's more outgoing than I am. It's hard for me to be responsive when he touches me or something. I wish it wasn't so diffucult. We talk quite a bit, and he uses my locker now for some reason. The other morning he handed me by bio book, I said "thank you", he stood there next to me for about 10 seconds, and then walked away. There's a lot of silence between us sometimes. I know I'm not the best conversation maker, but he generally is. Some of my friends are calling this some repressed romantic feelings of his, and I might agree if he wasn't so darn flirtatious with other girls, too. |
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 27, 2002 1:00:56 GMT -5
*sigh* I know...I just feel so...weird, I guess. Things were going so great for a while, then all of a sudden it took a downfall. And everyone is pairing off and yeah...it doesn't seem like Houston and Brianna will be splitting up anytime soon. I went to see The Ring tonite with Monica and Josh and Lindsey. We were sitting in a row of 4 chairs, and Monica was at the wall, then Josh, then me, then Lindsey on the end. It was fun. I kept teasing Josh cuz he got hit with a rake yesterday and some other stuff. So he's leaning over on Monica, and Monica is leaning over on him. He ends up putting his arm around her and they are holding hands beig all lovey and stuff. He even covered her eyes! *sigh* I know she didn't mean to be like that, and it just occurred to me that she didn't know I really liked him until we were taking her home. She goes 'You like him, don't you?' and when I said yes, she apologized. I told her she had first dibs on him, since she's liked him longer and he likes her. They still aren't going out tho. But at the movie, there was this one part that freaked me out, and I really wanted a guy to kinda latch on to...I had ended up covering my eyes, saying 'omg omg I did not need to see that' and leaning all the way over to Josh while he was leaning over to Monica. Blah. And I'm beginning to like Brandon K., but I think I kinda scare him, lol...a little too hyper maybe. lol But yeah. So I was feeling really alone and I really wanted to have a guy to hold, I guess. If Joey had been there, he prolly wouldn't have minded. But he wasn't, and even if he had, he would prolly be with the other group. So yeah. Feeling lonely still, and feeling like everyone but me is pairing up. Hurting cuz the guys I like are either taken or are practically scared of me. I cant really explain it. It just hurts. And feels like I'm alone, and will always be. I have only had 2 boyfriends. So many guys have been close, but they have always gotten another gf or decided they don't like me. blah.
This Sucks.
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 27, 2002 12:59:07 GMT -5
Hey guys..sorry I havent posted in a while...Anywhoo.. C-oh hun I'm so sorry. You are an amazing amazing person, and you arent alone. I know it feels like that but you arent. God's with you and I'm here whenever you need me. Blah, and I know you prolly want a guy and not me..but I'm still here ok? I love you hunny buns Gabi-I'm glad things with Justin are going great. Its good to see..well hear...well read you being happy. If that makes any sence at all  Paulina-Wow! It's great to finally call you by name! Anywhoo, "Nothing w/ Jake so far, except that his girlfriend is named Jeannie and sits behind me in science. She's nice, I guess." You have courage in saying that...I admire that Anywhoooo...EEE, my day is sooo tottally made! Ok, well first off I emailed Brett on Tuesday and told him that I knew about Leah and I was kinda mean. Well I sent it only b/c he usually never ever checks his mail. Well he checked his mail. So then he sent me an e-mail explaining everything and I felt really bad. Anywhoo, so I emailed him back and last night there was this carnaval thing at church. Well I was helping little kids decorate cookies for about 2 hours...how fun. Anywhoo, it was fun, but about 2/3rds the way through Brett comes in (I was a hula girl and Brett was Superman) and his teeth were chattering he was so cold and so I said he could switch me jobs..so then I went outside to load lil kids into the hay ride and tell them not to stand up yadayadayada..and then I convinced these 6th graders to do the job for me and I went back in. And the booth had finally slowed down..so I was like "I thought superman could handle anything? Even the cold." and he just looked at me and gave me his adorable smile and helped a lil angel make a cookie. *melts* Anywhoo so then finally it was over and now it was time to clean up...fun fun. Brett left and I didnt get a chance to tell him to check his email but today when I checked my mail he emailed me back... Subject: Wussup Babe! "RAEDER IS A FLAMER - TELL HIM THIS . I DONT LIKE LEAH, I STILL LIKE U. THE REASON WHY I DUMPED U IS BECAUSE ITS HARD TO HAVE A REALATIONSHIP WITH A PERSON FROM ANOTHER SCHOOL. WE SHOULD GO TO a movie. I think ANDY AND MANDY SHOULD GO OUT DOES HE HAVE ANY CHANCE WITH HER I THINK SO WELL GOT TO GO WRITE BACK LUV U LOTS" ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ EEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! *does a lil dance and breaks out into loud song "I'M WALKING ON SUNSHINE, WOOAHHH AND DONT IT FEEL GOOD!"* ;D ;D ;D |
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 27, 2002 19:44:33 GMT -5
'Cause IIIII'm all aloooone
Nobody's heeeeere besiiiide meeeee...
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 28, 2002 21:11:53 GMT -5
DANNNNNNGGGG ANDY!!!! Garrrr!!!!!!!  I'm gonna kick his lil butt. OOfta, the email I posted...that wasnt Brett it was Andy! Dang him!!!! Andy told Sara and I knew it sounded weird for the subject and yet did I pay any attention? NOOO! I'm so flippin stupid. And ya know the part "Raeder is a Flamer-Tell him this" ? Well, Andy hates Raeder...which is why he would say that! Dangggg.....GARR!!! Two of the emails that I have are from Brett though...*sniffles* and in one of them he says "Love ya and all that stuff" But prolly only because in the email I sent him I said Love you lots and all this stuff...dangit!!!!!!! GARRRR!!!! Anywhoo here's another email from Andy.... GODDNIGHT SEXY I AM GOING TO BED BECAUSE I AM TIRED AND STUFF. OOOH. OK THEN GOODNIGHT SEXY FOX YOU FROM THE HOTTEST GUY IN THE WORLD BRETT SHABOYGENISH ^^^^ tottally Andy....dang him! I CANT BELIEVE I'M SO FLIPPING STUPID!!!!!!!!! |
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 28, 2002 21:26:06 GMT -5
Hehe I did but you're not online...so there Today was ok...didn't see much of Brianna. But as far as I know they're still together. Hosuton asked for a pic of me ;D lol But today during lunch when we were all just hanging out, I went to go hang out with Monica and Josh and Chuck. Ok well I apparently stole Josh's seat cuz as I was coming over, he got up to get a pop. So he came back and we were like leaning on eachother trying to shove eachother off the seat. So to shorten up my story, Monica moves over one seat and josh sits down on the seat next to me. I was kinda straddeling the seat parallel to the table, and sitting towards the front of the table. So he goes and sits the same way, with his back facing me but towards the back of the seat. So we were pretty close, and i kinda had my leg somewhat on his. 'Twas fun ;D But as far as houton and me go, nothin too special. He was just being his cute little self today...and I think I'm staring to like Brandon F. again. *sigh* Amy and her hottie boyfriend were walking in front of me in the hall after school, and they kissed. It was so cute but it reminded me that I'm *still* ALL ALOOOOONE...cause NOBODY'S HEEERE BESIIIDE MEEE... |
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Post by tootrickyforyou on Oct 29, 2002 19:33:12 GMT -5
Gabi: You say nifty? Heh heh...nifty is one of my words too ;D. Yes, totally pointless, but still... Lisa: I used to be like that with a guy I liked. I would try and talk to him, but when he would touch my arm or something I would get all flustered and not know what to say, and I'd end up embarassing myself...bah... Christina: Hee hee...I'll remember that I should take a guy to the Ring...maybe me and Wayne should go to the movies this friday...hee hee...anyway, Josh sounds soo cute! And body contact, eh? *winks* Paulina: Yay! I get to call you by your real name! Anyway, that sucks when nothing happens with your crush. Hopefully something interestnig will happen soon! Nikki: Graw...I hate it when mix-ups like that happen...stupid Andy. Want me to go beat him up for ya ? But I agree with what Gabi said. Talk to Brett about it! *sighs blissfully* Wayne is so cute! On Sunday night we talked for over an HOUR, and it was sooo fun! He has a nephew named Cedric. Isn't that the coolest? *giggles hysterically* I don't think he likes me, though...my friends friend who's in his German class asked him today if we were boyfriend and girlfriend, and this is just too hard to explain, so I'll just copy and paste that part of our conversation...well, as much as I remember anyway. Wayne: Today in German Tangi asked if we were going out. Me: Weird...I wonder why she would think that. (I had NO idea on what to say....) Wayne: Yeah, I know Me: Maybe Lily told her...? Wayne: Yeah, maybe... And the conversation kind of changed from that. It was REALLY awkward, though. Even now I still can't think of what I would have said...bah. And guess what! Lily (my friend) ALMOST has him convinced to go to Cedar (my school) next year!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED!! That would be SO cool if he did go! *squeals* *sighs* I've been waiting forever for Wayne to be on, but he's still not, so I'm going to go now, and get off...can you tell I'm procrastinating? I WANT HIM TO BE ONLINE!!! |
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Oofta...I havent met her yet...but apparently she plays soccer and we play them next wednesday...watch..she's this perfect girl that everyone likes and likes Brett too. 
Blah then Bo kepted being extra-nice today...kinda weird. And I must admit I liked it...but I think its just b/c I wish it was Brett...so ya. But anywhoo, that was my day...
