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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 1, 2002 23:32:24 GMT -5
He dumped me....broke up with me....i'm un-hitched... devorced...whatever you want to call it...it happened. I really dont know what I was thinking...ofcoarse it wasnt going to last. He's unstable...he cant make decisions with out changing his mind a billion times, and he caves into peer pressure all the time. I mean I tottally understand our decision...I love him for thinking about both of us...he's not thinking about himself, he's thinking about me. And I dunno...his machurity (sp?) in all this was amazing...which only made me love him more...but anywhoo thats not the point. I still love him..and always will... So..sorry peoples if I'm not here as much peoples... I think I'll need a lil bit of healing time...ya know? Love y'all and good luck
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 2, 2002 0:24:08 GMT -5
Oh Nikki I'm so sorry. are you guys still friends? Shrub- *haha shrub...woo anyhoo...* 'fiendish troll'?hahaha *breathe breathe* ok I laughed to long on that...lol But I'm glad you at least made an effort...but did you ask if he had a girlfriend? And I agree with Gabi. Talk to him tomorrow and ask him about the hat or something. lol It's casual, so it doesn't sound like you really like him or whatever. Good luck, girlie! Gab- Ugh boys can be so immature...today this guy thought it would be hilarious to throw a pretzle at my butt at lunch But I'm glad things are going at least a little better with Justin. And don't worry about being too excited over the pencil, I was practically in histerics when Jesse just walked by today and glanced at me. lol And as far as the Steve thing, don't worry about him. You have better ways to spend your time. Don't waste in on him. *and tell him I don't like him...muahahaha ;D* Ok well today was pretty uneventful. Brandon talked to me once. Ok it was just to ask me where the Ring of Fire was.lol But today I didn't much see Jesse in the halls. At lunch, I was sitting at a different table with other pps I know, and I didn't go outside after lunch like I usually do. But at lunch, I was sitting across from Houston *he's so cute...light brown hair/blue eyes. But he's short. lol He's really cool though* and this other dude who was pretty cute came and sat next to me and was half talking to me and half talking to Houston. Houston had told him that I was the Terminator * I had my softball sweatshirt on that said 'Terminator' on the back*, so he looks at me and is like 'yeah I saw...' then he was saying how good my bagle looked *he was being sacastic...it was all smooshed and nasty-like* then he was playing =with this food holder thing and was like "ok this is the skateboard and you're a big ramp" and proceeded to 'skate' it up me. lol He was cool though. So then I have math next, so I'm in my classroom at my desk, but not sitting down. I have my knee up on my chair w/ my back to the back of the room looking at the assignment. So then Robbie comes in and I glanced at him and he's like 'Hey...it's the Terminator' so I looked at him kinda amused-like and he's all ' Yeah I somewhat know you...you get a hi from me' with a smug little look on his face. lol it was cute. So then Jesse comes in and is being his normal self, and he did something really loud and so I glanced at him with an amused smile and I see him glance at me and glance back at Robbie. Then later I was saying something to Kristen and this really hott guy in the halls who I had said *one* thing to the other day was teasing me. *sigh* I love this school... ;D
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 3, 2002 20:39:53 GMT -5
^^^Yay Gabi...even babysteps count "Forfiet the game before somebody else takes you out of the frame and puts your name to shame, cover up your face, you cant run the race, the pace is to fast, you just wont last." I just feel like I should give up. I cant keep up with everything thats going on. I feel like I should be happy and ok with everything....but I dont. I just feel like I'm loosing....I cant translate my feelings...I feel misunderstood...unloved...ignored. And I guess its not just with this whole thing with Brett, its with everything...I dunno...I'm so confused. And the thing is people always say I'm so strong...and all this crap...but I just feel like I'm so weak..and no one understands that I dont actually show my feelings. I feel like no one knows me. Like I have no friends...I have no family...I have no life. Whats wrong with me? I dont want to go back to my old life that I had last year with all this pain and other stuff. But I finally thought things were going back to normal and now...I dont know. Oofta...sorry guys...you shouldnt have to listen to me vent.... Good luck everyone
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Post by Beautiful.Disaster on Oct 4, 2002 0:25:29 GMT -5
hehe Sounds like things are really looking up for you, Gab. I'm happy...say hi to Justin for me and a hiss to Steve Nikki I'm so sorry...I don't really know what to say, but I do agree with what Gab said: lift it up to God. He brought this to you, and He will pull you through it. God has a plan for everyone, including you I gotta be kinda quick, since I'm supposta go to bed in like 5 minutes...Well, things are going ok with me. Jesse swiched out of my math class, so I no longer have any classes with him, but I do still see him in the halls. I think my obsession is wearing off. hehe And anyways he's got a girlfriend. The funny thing is, is that all my friends are like "omg I'm soo sorry..."etc etc and I;m like 'um ok...I don't own him...he's free do go out with whoever he wants to.' Surprisingly, it doesn't bother me as much as I thought it would. *shrug* But I do think that Houston is gonna be my new Jesse...and I have 3 classes with him, hang out with him, and today I was very touchy-feely with him. I will elaborate later, but for now, I must be going...ttyl!
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 5, 2002 12:04:46 GMT -5
Hey Hey... Sorry about that whole venting thing a few posts ago. I've handled it....I just slipped into one of my "hate the world and everything in it" moods. I'm feeling better now. I talked to Brett for uh...*counts on fingers* 2 and a half hours last night. Plus we had fun night at school and it just lifted my spirits. Anywhooo... Gabi-I'm glad things are looking up, hun. You deserve it and good luck with Justin. C-Houston, eh? You'll have to tell me all about him sometime Well guess i'm outa here. Love ya all
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Post by funkygirlk16 on Oct 5, 2002 12:41:54 GMT -5
I'm moving to Tennessee in November. Which makes me happy all except I won't get the chance to stare @ Brandon anymore. But, I hope they're some hott guys @ my new school. It is huge!
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Post by LisaRocksYourWorld, yo on Oct 5, 2002 20:53:32 GMT -5
Anyway... S and I aren't talking at all, zip, nada. Luckily I have other people to get my mind off of him.
There's this other guy I've been friends with since high school started (he's from another town). He's incredibly nice, smart, funny, intellectual. He's wonderful. He hugs me all the time and tells me he loves me. He's like that with a few other girls, too, but it seems to be done to me the most. Last night at the football game, I was hanging out with him. I got lots of hugs from him, a few ''I love you''s, and once... (you might want to sit down for this)... He ran up to me, gave me a big hug, a big kiss on the cheek, and ran away. It made my week. *giggles* I'm not jumping to conclusions... He does have a girlfriend (even though I don't think he likes her very much), and he could just have been being friendly.
Any input, girls?
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Post by Dudet13 on Oct 6, 2002 0:35:15 GMT -5
Boy, its been forever since I have posted here Well, I don't know what I have gotten myself back into... but.... Tonight i went to Taco Bell with my friend, and as I walk in the door, my eyes are drawn to some guys sitting at the table across the room. I realize that the guy facing me is Justin! ANd to top it off, he like looks up and sees me looking over at him. Luckily i wasn't really staring so i point him out to my friend behind her parents back. So when we sit down to eat, i have like the perfect view of him, with out making it obvious. So when his friends decide to leave, he gets up to refill his drink, and i was like drooling. So he goes to walk out, he turns and waves at me! Then he said "Hey! How are you?" and me being COMPLETELY in shock that he actually noticed me, I was like "... Hey! just fine... How's it goin?" and he said "alright!" as he went out the door. THe only time he ever talked to me was two summers ago at the feed store, and on the very last day of school when i complimented his ceramics. That was the second time he like started teh conversation... *calm.... deep breath.....* Yeah... so I guess he is my obsession again... although I prolly won't see him again since he graduated last yr.... Chelsea
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 6, 2002 15:59:33 GMT -5
^^ thats great hun. Lol, dont worry..Brett and I tend to talk about weird things too..we've talked about everything, from spaghetti noodles to how carpet feels between your toes Hehe, I'm glad your happy again.. Anywhoo Brett is at Dan's house...so I havent talked to him. He said he would call tonight...which means I wont be on the phone after 8 so I can get his call...pathetic.. yes I know...o well! ;D
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Post by Gabbie on Oct 7, 2002 13:17:03 GMT -5
Gabi-Glad to hear things are good with you and Justin again, nothing like having that best friend who understands you!
Nikki-Sorry to hear about you and Brett!
I've been so busy with school and stuff that I haven't posted in over a week, plus I like did something to my foot last week and walking to the computer was an effort and now I'm sick, so, yeah I've been having a good week.
And when my mom went to get my homework for today, since i'm home, they all wrote me a note and usually Matt doesn't sign those things because he hates the girls in my class, but he signed mine! And last week he offered to carry my books because of my foot, and he was defending me to some other people.
He probably doesn't even notice how big of an effect these things have on me....normally he is a complete ass and thats why like every girl in my class hates him, but he is always really nice to me, he is just so cute and sweet.
God, i'm such a freak lol, well my gushing is done, I can't wait until school is over and he comes online, lol.
**had to take out a part of my post**
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Post by PrettyGirl_Is_Suffering on Oct 7, 2002 18:14:04 GMT -5
Ok Im kind of in a rut... well there is this guy I like... but liked him last year too for almost the whole school year. Anyways last year we were friends and everything but I asked him out alot and never said yes then he started to be a real jerk. So i didnt talk to him for awhile... then one day he was on Im and my friends were typing abunch of shit like did you ever like Kristen and i got so mad. But when I got home that day and went on my sn the first thing that happen was that he Imed me. I ignored him... anyways fast foward... I Imed awhile ago and we had a nice dissuccion about how i use to like him and everything and he said he use to like me for awhile. Then another time we talked about our love lifes (haha we both dont have any) and stuff like that and how far I have gone and him. We both have only made out with people and so I typed that I would die only making out with somebody and he was like no you wont your pretty hott. And then I was talking about how I really wanted to meet someone kinda and he said i would. OIh and in one of the convos he said he was osrry for being a jerk. Well now of course I like him again. I dont want to like him but i cant help it. I know it wont matter becuase it will be just like last year Ill ask him ouy he'll say no. Whenever he is on IM he never Ims me i always Im him. GRRR I dont want him to think I like him but i dont want to not IM him.I really dont know what to do becuase I like him so much but I cant do a thing about it and it will probally not amount to anything. Is there anyway you can think of to get over him once and for all? Brecuase liking him will not lead to anygood it will just torment me.
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Post by Gabbie on Oct 7, 2002 18:36:32 GMT -5
PrettyGirl-This is exactly what happened to my friend last year, the exact same thing. She really liked this guy and she kept asking him out but he would either avoid the question or say no. One day me and her were over at my friend's house and we were talking to him online and we kept saying all this stuff about how much she liked him and how she wanted to go out with him and stuff. He got pretty scared and didn't talk to her much for the rest of the year and she was pretty upset about it. She has a BF now, but I don't know if she ever really stopped liking him. It was pretty hard for her to even start liking someone else. I don't know what you should do to get over him, I always find it helpful to write out what I'm feeling and usually when I'm done I feel much better and it has helped me get over a lot of people. If you need anymore help please PM me because my friend had the exact same kind of problem and I helped her out of it so...
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Post by dizzyupthegirl on Oct 8, 2002 10:35:55 GMT -5
Kay..... i'm seriously confused. You see.......... There is this guy name Jacob. He's really nice not to mention damn hot. Well he like this girl that is a year older than us. She's definately cool and i must admit she's pretty. The thing is, this girl has a bf. Now her bf is really sweet and i agree that he's cute. Loads of guys likes this girl too. Neway, my friend Jacob is really depressed about it, cuz he really likes her, but she has a bf and all taht stuff. Now me and him... we flirt like crazy. I mean u name anything that couples do, we probably have done it. Well except kissing on the lip. But we've hug alot.. i mean alot! Now the thing is, i know that we're just playing around and it doesn't mean anything. We both know we're flirting for fun. But what if i kinda develope a crush on him? I dont really want to cuz i just want to be his friend. But gosh.... he's so sweet and so geurgous! Anyway, on top of that, i flirt also with his bestfriend. His bestfriend is sweet and i think he's pretty cute. But i dunno... i tried not to flirt with Jacob a lot since i want to be friends ( but damn.. its hard! cuz we end up giving each other hugs all the time!). I tried to flirt more now with his bestfriend. But now... i'm worried that his bestfriend might get the wrong idea, even though i already set it straight that i'm doing it for fun. This doesn't make sense...... but anyway..... yea.... that's how my love life is going..............lolz!
xoxo, Dizzy!
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Post by PrettyGirl_Is_Suffering on Oct 8, 2002 18:31:49 GMT -5
Now i find myself trying too flirt with someone else just to get my mind away from him... but the whole time Im just oo I wish this was him.
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Post by *Little Leprechaun Gurl* on Oct 8, 2002 20:27:23 GMT -5
Dizzy-Maybe you should wait for a while and if you really start feeling uncomfortable/cant stand it anymore talk to Jacob. I know its easier said then done...but it will make things better in the end...hope I helped.
Gabi-thats quite odd...have you said it back? He might just keep sayingit until he gets an answer back...but then again if you do respond oofta, I dunno. But I'm glad things with Justin are going so well...thats awesome chika.
Oofta..I've gone 3 nights without talking to Brett. Me= going crazy.Last night I looked at his picture a billion trillion times and I must've glanced at the box with everything in it that reminds me of him in it a trillion times. Give me credit girls...I did not look in the box... but from there it was all down hill. Last night my lil sis went to a birthday party for her friend, and her friend's sister is in my class. Well this morning when she came back from the party she hands me this picture. I look at it...oofta. First before I tell you...I must say there isnt one picture of me and Brett where both of our eyes are open or one of us both looking decient together in the same picture...guess what the picture was. A picture of me and Brett in 6th grade on field day. The last full day of school that we both attended together. Before I found out I was sick, before all the surgeries, before we knew Brett had cancer, before all the garbage happened. All eyes were open, his arm was around me, we are both smiling, and its this perfect picture. I've stared at it for an hour straight....oofta pathetic. I've cried, I've laughed, and I've smiled...all from one picture. I'm happy...I love Brett...with all my heart, just looking at the picture...I can feel his arms around me. It makes me sad...I love him so much and we arent together. The picture was perfect, the time was perfect, nothing was wrong in either of our lives, we had eachother...it was so awesome. Now it just feels like its all crashed down. Things are so differant now...its weird. Oofta...I remember the day...I remember the shock when he put his arm over me (it was the first time), If only I knew what was going to happen I could have cherrished it more...Oofta. I love him so much...
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