Post by Gabbie on Sept 28, 2002 11:23:17 GMT -5
Ok well I've got a few problems, kinda weird, had to explain, but i'll do the best I can, and any help from anyone would be great, i will def. return the favor, i've been told i'm good at giving advise...
1st problem...
I feel like no one cares like what i'm feeling. For example, i'm 14, so isn't that usually where you have those changes of feelings, don't know what to think kind of moods? Well, my mom sees this as me going from the sweet girl i used to be to like the devil, and i always try to explain to her this is how my sister was and this is what teenagers do, but she doesn't seem to listen and i don't understand why. then last year i had 3 really close friends and we would tell each other EVERYTHING, but then me and my best friend (caitlin) got into a fight with another girl that was one of my 3 best friends and then it was really only me and caitlin sharing everything, and now this year i'm not in caitlin's class or the other 2 girls and i have now like 21 good friends those relationships aren't ones where we talk about our problems there more like those ones where your not that close but still all friends and you talk about what the freak who sat next to you at the movie's was wearing. You know? I just feel like no one wants to hear about what I'm feeling, my mom is always yelling at me and my friends, since there are so many of us, don't really talk about those "deep" feelings. I still have a great relationship with Caitlin and we still tell eachothere a lot, but its not the same now that we aren't in the same class.
2nd problem...
Last year me caitlin (name changed), sarah (name changed) and nicole (name changed) were best friends. It started off in the beginning of the year where me and nicole were best friends and then me and my long time friend caitlin and nicole were best friends. Then we all became friends with sarah, but i always felt closer and more in tune with nicole and caitlin then i ever did sarah. In, I think, Dec. caitlin and nicole got into a fight with sarah, and because i was closer to them i took their side. But about two months later we were all friends again, or so it seemed. Me and caitlin then revealed to each other how much we couldn't stand sarah anymore and how she was annoying the hell out of us lately. We then told nicole how we felt and she agreed. Later that day I had a convo with sarah where she found out that i was a little annoyed at her and me her and caitlin got into a fight. Nicole was to nice to say how she felt though. Me and caitlin have been best friends ever since, and nicole and sarah have been too. I feel terrible for not remaining close to nicole though. Then yesterday sarah told me that nicole never wanted to be my friend at the end of the last school year and then she had nicole pretend to be my friend to find out what i thought about her. I'm sooo mad at sarah, but i'm not mad at Nicole because for some reason i just believe that sarah like brainwashed her, but i don't know how to deal with this.
3rd problem...
what I said before is the biggest of my problems, i don't think i really have anyone to confide in anymore and that scares me because sometimes i just think i need a friend to vent to and if i don't have that i don't know what i'll do. I know me and caitlin are really good friends but its almost like i need someone i don't know, who i've never met, that can't judge me cause that don't really know who i am, that can just offer me advise, like i need that can of relationship. someone for me to help and someone to help me. i've gone through a lot in my life and i'm only 14, i almost had an EDO, my parents almost got a divorse 4 times, i almost turned to cutting myself (but i would never ever do that or even think of it again because one of my sister's old friends was a cutter and it was just not good), and just because i had no one to say what i was feeling and i was keeping EVERYTHING inside, anyway its happening again and i don't know what to do anymore.
HELP!
1st problem...
I feel like no one cares like what i'm feeling. For example, i'm 14, so isn't that usually where you have those changes of feelings, don't know what to think kind of moods? Well, my mom sees this as me going from the sweet girl i used to be to like the devil, and i always try to explain to her this is how my sister was and this is what teenagers do, but she doesn't seem to listen and i don't understand why. then last year i had 3 really close friends and we would tell each other EVERYTHING, but then me and my best friend (caitlin) got into a fight with another girl that was one of my 3 best friends and then it was really only me and caitlin sharing everything, and now this year i'm not in caitlin's class or the other 2 girls and i have now like 21 good friends those relationships aren't ones where we talk about our problems there more like those ones where your not that close but still all friends and you talk about what the freak who sat next to you at the movie's was wearing. You know? I just feel like no one wants to hear about what I'm feeling, my mom is always yelling at me and my friends, since there are so many of us, don't really talk about those "deep" feelings. I still have a great relationship with Caitlin and we still tell eachothere a lot, but its not the same now that we aren't in the same class.
2nd problem...
Last year me caitlin (name changed), sarah (name changed) and nicole (name changed) were best friends. It started off in the beginning of the year where me and nicole were best friends and then me and my long time friend caitlin and nicole were best friends. Then we all became friends with sarah, but i always felt closer and more in tune with nicole and caitlin then i ever did sarah. In, I think, Dec. caitlin and nicole got into a fight with sarah, and because i was closer to them i took their side. But about two months later we were all friends again, or so it seemed. Me and caitlin then revealed to each other how much we couldn't stand sarah anymore and how she was annoying the hell out of us lately. We then told nicole how we felt and she agreed. Later that day I had a convo with sarah where she found out that i was a little annoyed at her and me her and caitlin got into a fight. Nicole was to nice to say how she felt though. Me and caitlin have been best friends ever since, and nicole and sarah have been too. I feel terrible for not remaining close to nicole though. Then yesterday sarah told me that nicole never wanted to be my friend at the end of the last school year and then she had nicole pretend to be my friend to find out what i thought about her. I'm sooo mad at sarah, but i'm not mad at Nicole because for some reason i just believe that sarah like brainwashed her, but i don't know how to deal with this.
3rd problem...
what I said before is the biggest of my problems, i don't think i really have anyone to confide in anymore and that scares me because sometimes i just think i need a friend to vent to and if i don't have that i don't know what i'll do. I know me and caitlin are really good friends but its almost like i need someone i don't know, who i've never met, that can't judge me cause that don't really know who i am, that can just offer me advise, like i need that can of relationship. someone for me to help and someone to help me. i've gone through a lot in my life and i'm only 14, i almost had an EDO, my parents almost got a divorse 4 times, i almost turned to cutting myself (but i would never ever do that or even think of it again because one of my sister's old friends was a cutter and it was just not good), and just because i had no one to say what i was feeling and i was keeping EVERYTHING inside, anyway its happening again and i don't know what to do anymore.
HELP!
