Take A Look See

[dubiety]

i've decided to write poetry/songs/whatnots just because. i know that everyone else is doing it, but i don't care. i'm going through a lot right now, things i haven't experienced before. for some reason, i've begun to write.

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Follow the Way

I don't think that I've ever cried so much in my life
One day
A thousand weeps
My eyes are so worn from the stinging of my own tears
The handkerchief I hold in my hands is wringing out blood.

Everyone keeps telling me to be strong.
I don’t think I can
My body is so weak
Deprived of what happiness feels like.

So I kept all of my memories in a black box
And I threw the key away
Not feeling the same anymore

I began follow the girl who stares at flowers that wither away
Her heart, silently singing the song of a dead song bird
She reaches to catch all the fallen stars from the sky
And keeps them in her pocket

She's abandoned in the land of the unwanted ones
She has no face, like anyone else
And just sits there, like the others.
Where her place is in this world..
No one seems to know.

I glide through the yellow grass
Dancing with my broken feet
Oblivious to all that surrounds me
I am lost in the midst of her lonely cries

[LisaRocksYourWorld, yo]

Wow, I like it. It's really good, especially considering you just started writing. It's so theraputic, isn't it? If something makes you feel down, it's a great way to express your emotions. Keep writing!

[x n0ise]

Holy crap, I like it! ;D Great.....very good way to express feelings or what's going on in your life! Keep going! I'm liking it!!!

Haley.

[dubiety]

Drew

You're a beautiful one
With dark hair and enticing eyes that hold me captive
You project a sweet rapture that I cannot escape.
I'm haunted by these fields of dreams
Where I can do anything I want to you

You stare at me when I'm not looking
And I can feel your white light basking me in its warmth
I could stay this way forever
With you playing these games
Because you eat away at my heart, and I think I like it.

You've got a hold of something deep inside of me.
Don't you dare leave me this way
I've been waiting for it forever
Because when you're walking along the open winding road
Stumbling away from the incessant droning of your own loneliness
You can't help but move toward the only sign, in the middle of nowhere.

Maybe if I was with you
Living in this damned world wouldn't be so bad.
And I can tell you're just resting in expectation of the right move, the right time.
Its almost as if you're perched on the ledge of a ten story building, wanting to jump.
Well let me tell you,
I'm waiting down here with open arms.

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thank you girls for the feedback. i really appreciate it, especially coming from you two.

[dubiety]

Fevered Imagination

I am walking here in the now
Where time has stopped, and I'm the only one still moving
I whimper from the blow of yesterday's news
They poured salt upon my open blisters
And screamed in an unknown tongue
That I refuse to hear
So I turned away,
Leaving behind the frozen smiles and blank stares
Running away from the demons at the back of my mind
Who love to play with little things like me

Its a bedazzlement to have come this far, this way
How did I ever stray from what I used to be
I crawl around in the dark now, fumbling for the key
The key that fits the knob, of the door with the jarred writing

It will lead me to a subtle paradise that has been untouched
Astonishing beauty that is unforseen to the naked eye
And treasures that only who knows what can behold

The fevered imagination allows me to jump across the potholes of this rocky path
Avoiding the wrong turns, and disturbed creatures
Allowing me to crusade on a floating carpet
That will lead me to this door, with the key in hand
The door to a new beginning.

[dubiety]

Fake

I always knew it would be this way.
My path led to a point of no return.
And it’s a little bit funny
How everyone exclaimed,
My starlight eyes
And I'm the only one who noticed how broken they were.

Its so hard to keep adjusting like this.
I keep painting over an endless wall of lies
With my signature scripted in the corner

I'm a fake
It’s a façade
Keep this up
I want to see
How far this can go

I look in the mirror, and see a pretty girl
She smiles and waves to me, creating a happy feeling inside
Then her face changes, she starts cursing at how ugly I am.
She makes me want to cut all my skin off.

I wish I could be what I want to be.
I wish I could do, what I want to do.
But its so hard to come out of this darkness
I think I've gotten lost.

It's my own fault really.
I'm the one who wanted to go this far.
Its like I shattered my own reflection
And I'm laughing at how broken I am.

[Spazmatikal]

wow. your poetry rocks.

i really relate to that last one... "fake". i know how you feel.

[x n0ise]

And yet again I am amazed by your poetry. I love your poetry....and it's extremely good considering you just started writing. I really like it......keep up the awesome work. ;D

Haley.

[dubiety]

Mommy

I'm so confused by it all
You keep throwing this all this weight on my shoulders
We've already hit rock bottom
And you're still digging for more.
There's only so much I can take,
Before I finally fall down at your feet again.

How you can do this to somebody you love
Hurting them so deep that they've shut you out in their mind
And if I could help you mommy, I would
But you and I both know,
That you're hanging on to something that isn't there.
You don't fit into the new picture that daddy has painted.

So here's your broken heart
Daddy's serving it to you on a silver platter
Giving it to you for it to be mended again.
I don't understand why you want him to fix it himself
It won't work that way.
It never will.

I can't believe I'm starting to leave you behind like this.
I'm sorry mommy.
Daddy's giving me everything that you couldn't.
Wouldn't.
Its so easy to go, when you've done me so wrong.
Destroying something that was perfect in the first place.
You deserve all of this pain.
And I hate you for that.

[dubiety]

Broken Doll

Broken doll,
I coulda sworn that you didn't look right.
You aren't the same from what you used to be.
The clothes are tattered and worn,
Your throat is filled with the remains.

I searched your eyes for your hidden soul
That I thought had been stolen, awhile back.
Instead I saw a star studded, black-eyed night.
Your porcelain is starting to wear thin.
The sky is about to come crashing down on you.
I hope you make somebody happy someday.

You're a broken doll
And there's a laughing trick about you
I hope you know,
That you're giggling for nobody new.
Your twisted neck
And scarred skin
Is terrifying, with a twinge of familiarity

Don't you realize, you broken doll
The real tragedy is you
Nobody knows,
That you stopped existing..

[dubiety]

Deception Accomplished

If there ever was a time to escape from here, it'd be now.
Don't you know how confused I am?
I'm afraid of finally letting go, finally breaking down
I'm too scared to let anyone see.
Being lost in a cryptic nightmare has its advantages.
I too can pretend everything is okay.
So easily.
I'm breathing the fire of a cursed dragon
Breathing into your face, not letting you see a damn thing.
Smiling doesn't come easily,
Though it’s a talent that I do possess.
Laughing is even harder, but I seemingly have perfected the craft.
They all ignore my dead eyes
They all don't see my scars.
I have no hope, for it has been taken away from me.
Still nobody notices.
Nobody cares.
Nobody sees.
Its all merely an illusion, that you all refuse to look through.
When I finally go, I hope you all will see
That I really was crying for help.