*Official* Eating Disorder Support Thread

[80s Child]

This is the place to come if you need help and are struggling with an eating disorder. Some rules first:

1)By posting here, you're saying that you want help, and are getting it elsewhere. You need to be working toward the goal of recovery.

2)NO NUMBERS IN POSTS. Use variables like "X" or generic words like "several" instead. Numbers can trigger competition, which is bad for those with disordered eating habits.

3)If you feel your post may be triggering, please post a warning, IN BIG LETTERS, to let us know. If you don't do this and you post a triggering post, the policy for triggering posts, detailed in the rules for this forum, applies. Those who are easily triggered should not read triggering posts.

If you see behaviour that you feel warrants attention, please PM and let me know; I will take care of it.

Hope this helps everyone!

[theLadyMadonna]

For the record I don't have an eating disorder...at least I don't think I do..

But anyways, sometimes I just feel like I should because...well, I don't know. The past few months have been so bad for me. I guess I want attention...someone to tell me I'll make it...it's not important...it'll be over soon. Can anyone else relate? I don't have anyone to talk to. I mean, I have friends and stuff, but it's just different. I feel like no one else knows I feel and no one else is going through the same thing. It's been better recently because I haven't been in school, but I'm so worried about what's going to happen when I go back....A few weeks ago I was barely eating because I was stressed and  had no way of venting.

Ugh...

[vbkimber07]

You will be alright.  You will be okay.  If you ever need to talk, I will.  You will make it through.  Enlist the help of people close to you.  You can do it.
Take it from one who has been there, and eating disorder is not the way to go.  It does seem like it will help things at first, but it only makes things worse, more difficult, and makes your life into hell.  
I can relate to where you are coming from, it is hard to know who are your true friends and who you can trust.  Sometimes I have gone through phases where I couldn't talk to any of my friends.  Try keeping a journal.  Be careful this journal tells of your thoughts and feelings, some people prone to EDOs will try to write what they eat or whatever.  Don't.  Talk to anyone you can, and try to think of the big picture.  
Lastly, find alternative ways to deal with stress.  Read, Lie still, smile, breath deeply (even during classes), try to avoid procrastination and schedule time for yourself.
If you ever need anything, PM me (or whatever it is called here).  I'll give you my instant message sn and e-mail.

[vbkimber07]

Bravo Sarah.  The rules for this board are very good.  When I was sick, numbers and other triggering posts would have really bothered me.  I probably wouldn't even have had the self-control to keep from reading triggering posts.  We can make this into a save supporting community for people recovering from EDOs, former struggelers, friends, family, and at risk people.  

[80s Child]

Thank you vbkimer.   I appreciate the praise.

[KattyKatie]

I think I do have an eating disorder, well actually I have symptoms of several. My typical day consists of a multivitamin for breakfast, a can of diet pepsi for lunch and about half of the supper I'm served. The thing is, I don't keep any of that food in my body, I usually end up forcing myself to vomit. I also exercise excessively and I've been known to do up to 1500 jumping jacks in one day, no joke. I know I need help, but I don't want to go through it. My life is already screwed up as it is, I've been in therapy twice for self-esteem problems and suicidal thoughts. I just don't know what to do, my friends are all noticing it, but I always tell them I'm fine. Help me please .

[80s Child]

snowbunny: Please, PLEASE talk to someone about this. Tell a parent, a teacher or another responsible adult. Honey, we all love you, and none of us want you to hurt yourself badly. Please get help, your life is worth it.

[x n0ise]

Oh snowbunny...please tell someone.  Anybody...your friends, parents, teachers...a relative.  I don't want to see you get hurt - no one does.  Oh, sweetie...please get some help.  You're worth it.  We all love you...I'll be here for you.

[vbkimber07]

Although it seems like help will screw up your life farther, it won't.  What you need to do is get out of the situation as soon as possible.  Tell people you aren't fine.  It may be hard.  Some people may not want to believe you.  When I tried to reach out for help for my anorexia (this is 2 years out of a long, difficult recovery), nobody would listen.  They were in denial as much as I was.  
Lastly, if you don't get help, your life will be screwed up so much more than it already is.  Get it now.  The longer you are in the disease, the longer it takes to get out.  I know women who have had EDOs off and on for 20 or so years.  They do not look good, they can't stay in relationships (some can't even get into relationships).  They can't hold down jobs, they can't have kids, some can't graduate, they can't live on their own, they are watched like they are little kids.  
The first step to recovery, as hard as it may seem is to stop the behavior.  Start eating, stop throwing up.  Easier said than done I know.  Go to a therapist again.  Go to a hospital, check yourself in if you have to.  Clean this up now.  IF you wait longer, more of your life will be screwed up.  

YOu have to get out of this mess now.  it may be hard and take some sacrifice, but it won't be as bad as waiting.  Ever had a heart attack?  They aren't fun.  IV's daily aren't exactly a breeze either.  Whatever you do, learn to love yourself.  Until you love yourself--or at least accept yourself as important, you can't love anyone else.
and that is sad.

ps--plusses for the multivitamin, but it is not doing you any good.  1st of all it is probably coming back up w/ everything else.  2nd of all you need h20 and lipids to absorb the vitamins and get the benefits.

[Cassiopeia]

I'm pretty sure I have an eating disorder.  I haven't been formally diagnosed, but I would say that what I have is probably either bulimia or a compulsive eating disorder.  I go through a period where I binge eat.  And then following that, I either go on a fast (or eat very little food), take diet pills, exercise exessively, or make myself vomit.  However, I guess it's not very serious, because my weight is completely normal.  Still, my thoughts aren't normal.  It's horrible when you are constantly obsessing over food.  These thoughts take over my mind and make it so hard for me to concentrate on anything else.  I also have OCD, depression, and anxiety, and I think that they are what fuels this obsession with food.  It's a result of those three disorders.

[PurpleRibbonGirl]

I've had an eating disorder for going on 7 years now. If anyone needs somebody to talk to who's experienced anorexia, bulimia and coe, feel free to pm me. I'm not better(currently relapsing with ana), but sometimes it's just nice to talk to someone who understands.

[KattyKatie]

Well I haven't posted in a while and things haven't been getting particularly better either. While before I was only purging a couple times a week I find myself doing it more and more, usually a couple of times a day! For me I can feel the weight being put on when I eat and it scares me a lot. I think people are beginning to notice now, people always ask me why I'm so weak and I'm running out of excuses. I guess I'm just really really scared right now.

[sophisticated_cat]

I'm unhappy with my weight, i am not overweight, but i think im aneroxic, i mean like when i was 14 yerars i was at a normal weight, that was about two years ago, then last year i was unhappy and i didnt eat that much, not because i didnt want to, but i guess i never felt like it, i sometimes forgot to eat, and sometimes i would eat one meal a day, i take a plate full of food, then i might just eat a quarter and wouldnt feel like eating anymore, now when i try to eat more food, i just dont want to, i feel full, now im 16 years and im no longer at a normal weight, ive lost weight, and im supposed to be a lot more kg now that im growing...i dont know whats wrong, i didn't intentially want to lose weight, i never counted calories, i loved the way i looked before, i just was depressed, and then my eating habits got worse and worse...i hate the way i look now, im skinny, pale, i dont have that womanly curvy figure that i used to have, i want to gain weight, get my figure back, i want to eat more, and yet its as if i can't..don't know what's wrong, don't know what to do..thanks for listening....

[brown_eyed_rudie]

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*HUG*

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^i seem to do that a lot. that's for you, all of you, love you guys!
i keep purging lately it sucks, and i don't know why. i should be happy and i don't know. i just want every single one of you to realize that we're all here for you.
chins up!rudie

[x n0ise]

I need help. I don't know if I have an eating disorder or not.

I don't want to starve myself.  I don't think I'm fat.  I think I need to gain weight...but I'm not, I'm losing it.  In the past week or so I've gone from about 110lbs to about 101lbs.  My friends always tell me to just eat more, but it never dawns on me because I only eat when I'm hungry, and I'm hardly ever hungry.  Or sometimes I'll be hungry and I'll look around for food in the kitchen but nothing looks good to me, so I just won't eat anything.

Some days I go without eat anything (just drinking a few pops), and some days I just have crackers adn cheese....and stuff.  It's just...I don't know, I don't know what's wrong with me.  I look sickly, my arms are disgusting.  I hate myself...